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I AM DONE

2012-01-27T19:40:00.001+13:00

hullo everyone!
Merry extremely belated christmas!

Happy belated New Year!

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

i am now currently releasing 4 years worth of stress by having a good loooong holiday in Aussie.

yes humans! I AM DONE. ~~at the age of 22~~, (actually not even 22 yet...so let's make it 21) at the age of 21, i am soon graduating. all there is left now is to wait for all my grades to be reviewed to see if i get to be rewarded with honours. n den wer dat pretty gown n graduate. n den another stage of my life wud b over. prob my most fav stage of life i'll ever have.

2011 was a manic yr. n i have d lack of blog posts to prove it. wif massive final yr projects and my sister's wedding (i finally have an older brother! yay!...altho he's not really d kind of older brother i imagine one to be. haha) everything that year was a big clump of non-stop activity. not to forget, being in a relationship can be REALLY time consuming....not saying that i don't like it. :P

dats y nw, it feels soooo weird. it feels weird not to be returning bak to uni tis yr. weird not to have this feeling of "oh-my-gosh all the allnighters i have to go through again" feeling. i think i am ironically gonna miss it. but its time. time to leave the years of hardcore learning behind. time to face da REAL world....

WAAAAAA!!!! MOMMY!! I DUN WANNA!!!!!

sigh....but i guess dats life for us. let me know how working life scares you to death so i can be prepared. :P

but it's gr8 to know i'm not goin thru tis transition alone. as God has provided me with companions all through the stages of change in life. i have people all around me supporting me. my parents, my sister, n my awesome bf. and tho most of my frens are leaving to other countries to find jobs we are never too far apart frm each other when we need a helping hand. thank God for technology.

but i think for now, i just wanna sit back, chill, n enjoy this period of not having to worry about anything b4 charging my way into an employment agency. u noe....i don't have much longer to stay being kiddy ( which sucks) so i'm simply just enjoying my last few moments of a carefree life. n what better way to do so other den hitting d beaches and themeparks. :D yes, the Gold Coast is wer i'm heading to. n i'm gonna have a blast. so you all better get praying it doesn't rain this next few weeks.

it's been 4 years since i started this blog. it's amazing how much changes in 4 years. it only seems like yesterday i was this nervous 18 year old girl who had no idea wad she was in for. n b4 i noe it, i'm standing at d starting line of a whole new world again. time flies. too fast for my liking to be honest. xD but it matters not. cause in the end, we're all in it together anyway.

i wish you all a gr8 2012. may it be a year of new learnings, new discoveries, and new relationships. live it to the fullest n savour every moment.

love, JP

in d midst of tough days

2011-08-06T11:56:00.000+12:00

d title says it all. fourth year....it is evil. brutal. unforgiving.

right now with all that i have on my hands, i'm not really sure how i'm gonna make it thru without going up in flames. i got off to a bad start this trimester by failing one my courses (my first FAIL since my uni life started) - ironically, it was my Rome course. after bawling and being epicly depressed for like a week, i've been plunged into one hell of a project which i find myself staring at day at night wrecking my brain over n over n over again. and to add to that, a hardcore elective which really doesn't make my life any easier. so yes....i am stretching my limits far beyond what my brain is capable of. but i'm still at it....still trying not to drown. n if i said d past 3 years was tough, well....this year is not for d faint hearted. already heaps of my classmates dropped out after the first sem which kinda almost made me wanna give up on this profession which i don't see myself doing in the future. i've been asking myself almost everyday "what the heck am i still doing here if i know this isn't what i want?" d answer is probably bcause i'm stubborn. not wanting to waste what i've did so far. probably.

and don't get me started on how pissed off i was (and still am) about how i failed my Rome field study course. i spend every second asking myself why did God ever let me waste all that money to Rome. and everytime i think about it i start throwing a fit, regretting ever deciding to sign up for the course. but i've recently come to the conclusion that mabe going on that trip wasn't about me at all. yeah i failed and got my transcript muddled with an ugly E but i think what was most worth it about going on the trip was being given the chance to really talk about God. it's not everyday i have a gay friend and an atheist come to me and ask why the christians do what they do. let's face it...the setting of Rome really generate some super interesting conversations. so tho my parents are screaming their heads of for wasting money, it was still worthwhile. not for me tho. it was worthwhile for God. which if i think about it in that aspect. i don't regret anything anymore.

and yes....to only realise this isn't what i want for the rest of my life after coming this far is not really what you want to deal with in the midst of all this mess. but i've just started reading a book called 'FINAL' which talks about your final year of uni n what u have ahead of you. i've just read the intro but it was good enough to make me want to read that whole book at once. it's good to know i'm not the only struggling with the issue of wanting out of the course you're in. and thankfully, i'm still young (as in not many people get this far by the time they turn 21) so i still have options. of coz, even if i plan to change what i'm doing, i don't think anything that i have gained in this past 4 years would go to waste. i won't let it. not after all i've gone thru. sometimes i wonder if it's all part of God's super complicated plan for me. i feel like i never know what is the right decision. the things that i tot were bad decisions always seem to have taught me lessons so in a way, maybe it was meant to be. and the things which i thought were right decisions turn out being....well....not so right.

like i said, it's complicated.

but yea....no one ever said life was easy anyway. unless you're an accountant. xD. jokes....but seriously, i look at my accy frens n dey look like they have all the time in the world and ders really not much to worry about. but designers like us, we worry 24/7 if we can make it big in the real world. and if we can't be at the top of our pile of designers, our future lies in nothing but becoming a banker. joy right? of coz, i'll never let myself become a banker. i believe i'm nothing short of a designer....i'm just not sure if i'm doing the right kind of design. u noe wad i'm saying? sigh.....

anyhow, that is what i've been going thru. spiralling out of control. time to make an SOS call to God.

wer did my projects go???

2011-07-14T16:33:00.000+12:00

hey all, if you been keeping up with my blog since ages ago, u wud have realized dat i no longer have my projects posted on this blog. this is just so i can protect my projects a bit more and not have every tom, dick, and harry ripping images off my site. don't worry, they are still available on my design blog and tho anyone can still plagiarize me if they even bother, at least i would know wer dey got it frm. ders a myPROJECTS link set up just below all my tags so do go visit my design blog once in awhile. comments much appreciated. ^^

p.s. to think dat i update my design blog more often den i update tis blog kinda proves my life is revolving ard my studies and have no social life. FAIL.

it's been awhile

2011-06-12T23:19:00.000+12:00

i know i'm a sucky blogger. but this year has been waayyyy too intense. i hardly have the time to go about doing random stuffs like i use to. well i guess dat happens when ur in honours year, have a boyfriend and go hardcore on LOTRO. i'm even backdated on my KPop. haven't been staying up to date with the latest ins. and i haven't even been tweeting!!! xD

n yes....randomly i appeared here again. not cause i'm any freer. nooo...i have an EXAM 2mrw, a huge assignment due 2 days after, and i'm going to Rome for a field study trip the day after my assignment is due. n when i get back frm my trip, i have to write a 5000 word essay. n by d time dat essay is due, it'll b tri 2. joy. this year has been raving frm one thing to another non-stop. it's hard to believe it's already mid-year.

i miss d good ol' slow n lazy days sometimes. like when i was in highschool time just drags on and on and on. nw, one moment is 10am, d next is like 10pm. craazy.

anyhow, just releasing some steam from all d studying so i can sleep well n wake up with a clear mind for 2mrw's exam.

will b bak!

JP

~(^_^)~

2011-05-07T12:37:00.001+12:00

i'm on an epic high at d moment. had my 21st a week back but cudn't do anything since i had a bunch of assignments to finish. but anyhow, it doesn't matter cause i've been having a number of 21st parties for me. xD celebrated it with my family a few weeks b4 and today, another round with a bunch of frens frm ICF. ^^

and yes, along with turning 21, there are presents. presents that came in all forms. presents like good grades, a boyfriend (that came with a teddy bear and a scarf), a trip to Rome, and a Mines of Moria extention pack for my LOTRO game. MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah, things are looking pretty bright at d moment....and feeling epicly blessed.

i'm so happieeeeeeeeee. ^^

THIS I WANT!!!!

2011-03-29T00:31:00.000+13:00

The Gazette's Traces Best of 2005-2009 and live DVD The Nameless Liberty at 10.12.26 Tokyo Dome!!!

apparently it'll be released on April 6th. Which gives you (yes you) time to buy me that piece of gold for my birthday!!! muahahaha!

just kidding! but i really really want it. so bday ang pows wud b awesome...kekeke.

ever since most of the gazette vids has been copyrighted and taken down frm youtube, i've been bawling over d fact that i couldn't watch any recent vids of the gazette esp d oh so awesome Reita that drives my fangirl instincts exploding out of proportion.

so yeah....when a compilation album+concert dvd comes out....how can i say no to that?

man, the gazette is really cool. esp when it comes to their musical talent. i just wish their band concept wasn't so demented sometimes. badass...i like. demented....not so....

drawing: samurai???

2011-03-25T13:15:00.000+13:00

yep....back to drawing random anime lookin things....got abit too tired facing 3d programmes all d time. so just wanted to chillax and draw some meaningless anime and colour in photoshop. i just wished i cud make d sword look cooler....

new design bloggie!!!

2011-03-20T15:50:00.000+13:00

as most already know, i have a design website. however, my lame free domain acts up quite often and i can't seem to fix my site so it's compatible with IE. thus, i'm moving to a design blog for now while i try n figure out the right way to do a real proper website. n due to epic busy-ness in my courses, you peeps prob won't see me with a new website any time soon. so yeah, just settle with the blog for now. xD

just visit this link: http://justinephangdesigns.blogspot.com

i'm nw abt into my 4th week of 4th yr interior archy. bein a postgrad is no joke man...everything is like sooo...philosophical. n u can't get away with being lazy. i miss lai (my interior archy best buddy) so so much! without her ard, my classes are really mundane and i spent most of the time by myself doin work. but time still seems to fly with projects due one after another. n i'm really starting to resent the fact that i can't go and play ard like my commerce or BA buddies during the weekend. of coz, by nw i shud hav accepted it but when u r alone most of d time in uni, u start to really really want to see other people n do things dat isn't related to friggin architecture.

but anyhow, in order to get my first class honors tis yr, i don't really have a choice. so yeah...i apologize for being so boring these days. i wish i could do more interesting posts other than rant abt uni all d time. but really, der isn't much goin on other than that. >_<

What quality do you value most in your friends?

2011-03-05T14:02:00.001+13:00

their craziness.

Ask me anything

love and thoughts as wide as d ocean...

2011-02-22T23:53:00.004+13:00

I LOVE NICHKHUN!

shall i repeat?

I LOOOOOVEEEEE NICHKHUN!

ok...i feel totally guilty for being so obsessed right now when der r ppl not too far away who are having their worst nights tonight without shelter and internet connection...but in d midst of all d depressing atmosphere, i can't help but think dat khunnie is just d sweetest thing eva!

as most already know, cchurch has been hit by a pretty massive earthquake. (thankfully, as of now, none of my frens or their families have been reported hurt and are safe.) of coz, as nz is just a tiny country at the edge of the earth, i wudn't hav expected such a touching heartfelt global response. but take a look at tis...

yes...i might b a total fangirl n completely kpop biased but hu can read dat n not think dat khunnie oppa is just a darling?! sending such thoughtful tweets all d way frm korea....

(of coz, if u look closely, bieberboy also said some sweet things....i'm starting to think he isn't too bad after all....but still...big NO to his completely demented fanbase.)

ahh....i just love how simple words can cheer ppl up. esp when they come frm places u least expect them to come frm....

10 reasons why KL is my fav summer break destination...

2011-02-10T01:24:00.005+13:00

1) msian food!!

2) unlimited supply of eye candy

3) epic BFF gatherings

4) times square, sg wang, and cheap asian shopping

5) karaoke

6) clubbing...msian style

7) old town white coffee outlets

8) d kpop love

9) fly fm

10) simply bcause i'm a kl girl. :)

numbered are d days...

2011-02-07T07:38:00.002+13:00

as always, time flies. all d more when working abt 10hrs a day, 5 days a week, partying and meeting up wif frens every saturday, and trying to catch up with evrything else (esp sleep) every sunday. my 1 month internship ended up being like a 3 week internship thanks to CNY. muahaha! so yes...i'm done with my internship and dat is also y nw i have some time 2 muck ard again. it was good while it lasted. learnt heapss of stuff. but i'm glad to be able to be back to sleeping till 1 in d afternoon again.

n so my summer is slowly but surely winding down. d whole CNY fiesta is just abt ending and in 4 more days and i'll b heading to spore n den bak to d land of sheep. in terms of having a summer holiday, i can never get enough of kl. it's d best place 4 me 2 go wild, have fun wif my boos, shop like i have all d money in d world, n gawk at asian guys 2 my heart's content. plus, ders krispy kremes here nw....not like welly...pffftttt! haha. KL is awesome. interesting things always happen when i'm in KL.

summer breaks can seem so timeless. everyday is like a new experience n nothin is mundane. u just run ard n do wadever u can think up of doing. but d worst part abt summer breaks is dat it comes to an end, just like everything else. n bcause u know wad lies ahead of you, u bcome even more reluctant 2 let it end. but i guess in a way, it just makes summer breaks all d more precious.

into the working waters...

2011-01-10T02:24:00.004+13:00

this week has been beyond intense for me. before it even hit me, there i was freaking out over an internship interview. n den i got d job. n now, i'm freaking out over actually working. like for real. architecture internship style. this ain't no simple part time job of taking care of kids or what not. this wud b d introduction of the real working world in which i eventually would have to step into once i graduate. scary? u have no idea...i'm totally NOT prepared for this.

however, God simply just opened d door n dragged my scaredy cat butt into that interview room. n whether i like it or not, i was gonna have to go thru this. yes, i know i don't sound too excited bout d job. but in all honesty, i am excited. i'm just a lil more scared den excited. i believe this is one phase in my life that God really thinks its abt time i conquer.

i dunno if u think this is funny or what...but i've been wondering how lunch hour works? do u just run off and eat? do u follow and eat with your co-workers? or do you just sit alone and eat? n if were i to go out and eat...how do i get there? would i have to ask someone to give me a ride??....sometimes i think my brain just thinks and worries abt d most useless stuff....

i guess it's scary that i won't know anyone and have to find my way ard stuff and all alone. (u noe hw i hate doing things on my own) n i'm mostly worried abt not being able to get along with all d othr ppl. but as evry1 has been tellin me, just trust God. and be confident. easier said than done but i guess i would eventually have to go thru it. might as well muster up all the courage i have and do it.

2011 Resolutions!!!

2011-01-03T04:07:00.003+13:00

d time has come again 4 my yearly resolutions!

after evaluating my last year resolutions, i've achieved 60% of my resolutions!! whoooo!! wayy more den i have expected. so yeah....2010 has been very good to me. i've been told to count my blessings so that's one. xD

this year, i'm basing my resolutions on 3 points (adopted frm tis morning's church service)

to have another year of PROGRESSION,

another year of TRUSTING,

& another year of SERVING.

my list is a short one this year but here goes my Resolutions for 2011!!

1) i will continue to keep up my B+ average in my uni courses. and if i daresay, to do even better.

2) i will continue exercising and loose more weight!

3) i will continue serving in ICF even tho I'm not on d committee anymore.

4) i will try the WORKING waters...

5) ...and trust that God will open doors and grant me courage.

6) i will trust that God will give me a worthy boyfriend. xD

Msian holiday FTW!!!

2011-01-01T22:34:00.002+13:00

currently: watchin SUJU ny special on TV!!!!!

LOL!!! xD

not dat i shud b lying ard indoors on new years day but after partying and clubbing 2 straight nights in a role, d best thing to do right now is to sit at home n watch korean programmes.... ON TV! kekeke.

i've been having a pretty epic holiday so far....shopping till i literally drop in thailand, coming bak 2 msia just in time to celebrate christmas with my family and few days later gettin it down with my girls in clubs dat leak wif asian guys 2 welcome d nw year!! whoooooooo!

oh yeah, i'm enjoying my holidays alrite. d food, d shopping, d people, d parties, d fact that this part of d world leaks wif kpop love....everything!!...well except 4 traffic jams, politics, and people who insist on speakin 2 me in either chinese or english. thankfully, i can still understand wad dey are talkin abt. ^^

but it's all gooooood. just what i need to pump me up 4 d nw year!!!!! i hope d rest of my holidays will just b as epic. hehe.

HAPPY 2011 EVERYONE!!

NOMU NOMU NOMU SARANGHE!!!!!

(^_^)-V

fit for a hobbit

2010-11-29T11:29:00.003+13:00

lately, much talk about the movie The Hobbit has been going on. with extras casting auditions that happened just abt a week ago, i've been getting the most randomest people coming to me and telling me i should have auditioned for it. why? because i'm 4'11, chubby, and so fair my skin can reflect light. but really? an asian hobbit? lol. i know there's such a thing as make-up and all but i haven't even thought of the possibility of auditioning until recently. but meh, i'm pretty sure all d auditions are over already and i rather wish i could be an elf (playing way too much LOTRO). after all, i've got my postgrad to think abt. but hey, if d opportunity comes abt again maybe i'll try out for fun. just cause i can. xD it isn't everyday ppl are looking for short stubby people. heh heh.

modelling: 3D head

2010-11-14T21:13:00.002+13:00

my very first attempt in modelling a 3D head.

i modeled this using 3DS max. i pretty much started with a basic plane and a front and side head template. i den used editable poly to form the plane into a head.

the eyes were such a pain and for some reason i couldn't make d face to look chubbier. xD

nway, i tot it was pretty decent for my first try. wad do u reckon? any tips wud b awesome!

vintage glam

2010-11-13T18:31:00.003+13:00

vintage is in!! ^^

goodbyes and uncertainty

2010-11-13T11:30:00.004+13:00

as most of my peeps know, one of the things i hate the most is having to say goodbye. most of my friends are graduating this year leaving a lonely me behind to deliberate whether i still want to do my masters or not.

in all honesty, i downright feel crappy because not only am i going to loose literally half of my support system, i'm also going to have to go through the pains of interior architecture without a comforting shoulder to lean on. yes, i'm a very dependent person.

so why did i decide not to graduate? d answer is simple. i didn't want to....and bcause if i did i'll b graduating wif a crappy degree title. but i guess ders a lil more to that. sure its a stink dat i'm not gonna hav my buds ard and dat uni is going to be as evil as ever. and every ounce of my body rejects the idea of having to go through all of it again. but somewhere in my heart, i know i can do more.

all my life i always give up halfway. just when i'm given the chance to take an extra step further, i decide not to. if i did, i prob wud have been a star gymnast or bcoming a professional dancer. but bcause of fear, bcause of wad ppl say, bcause i simply didn't try, those things now are just dreams that i didn't achieve.

the thing is, i don't want to regret not doing it or at least try doing it. yes, i'm afraid of failure even tho it's been hammered into my head like a thousand and one times that failure only makes you stronger. but i don't want to think i'd fail b4 i even give it a try.

the thought of doing masters seems almost near to impossible for me and i'm definitely not GREAT at what i do. but i can't help thinking that i should just try my hardest and achieve the highest level possible instead of settling for just an average degree.

and to think of the rewards? it'll b like achieving family honor. let's face it, in terms of a typical asian family situation, my sister is definitely the one to be proud of. she graduated with first class honors and is now earning big $$ fast. and me? the one who's always running ard playing and doing watever i please. it'll be nice to think dat getting my masters would also make me the first in my ginormous family tree to get masters. at the age of 22 btw.

i'm not saying i want to do my masters cause i'll get some serious credit. i'm saying that if i achieve this, i would be proving to everyone, mostly to myself, that i can be as good and as capable and not just mediocre. it also means i won't regret not ever trying.

but with that ambition, it also means i have to say bye to my social life, asian drama addiction, and work really hard. and working hard is something i yet to master. and it doesn't get any easier without my friends ard for support.

LOTRO = unhealthy

2010-11-10T16:48:00.003+13:00

good morning all!....or so i thought b4 i woke up and saw d time. it was 4.30pm. yeah....i officially slept for 15 hours, without waking up once, and went through about 3 different dreams. i can't remember wad dey were abt but i do know one of dem had something to do with playing Lord of the Rings Online.

oh yes, LOTRO started taking over my life since abt a day or so ago. i can't even remember when i started cause all my sense of time has been messed up frm playing. but dats d same as all MMOs dat i play. Is just dat LOTRO is fun enough to get me playing for a longer span of time compared to other MMOs.

but wad can i say. boredom has completely disappeared. so i have no complaints. xD

drama binging

2010-11-05T01:11:00.002+13:00

when holidays start, so does d drama addiction.

not that i don't have one during d school term, but it bcomes excessive when d holidays come ard.

nways, since i haven't update u peeps on wad dramas i've been mooning over since 4ever, here's d current list:

1) mischievous/playful kiss - a kdrama version of d anime itazura na kiss (which i watched like 3 years ago). after d epic fail of the taiwanese live version, i was skeptical abt this but d moment kim hyun joong was added into d equation, i couldn't bare to let it pass. and yes, it was GOOD. REALLY GOOD. this is one drama i'm prob gonna watch and rewatch again and again.

2) sungkyunkwan scandal - a drama with micky yoochun and song joong ki in it? how can i say no. but wad really got me into this drama was suprisingly d bad boy character jae shin (played by yoo ah in). bad but good. tough on d outside, soft on d inside. hot but cute at d same time. TOTALLY MY TYPEEEEE!! and bcause of dat, i'm totally hooked onto this drama.

3) my girlfriend is a gumiho - altho d storyline kinda keeps goin in circles, its still something nice to just sit and watch and enjoy. not the top but enough to make me wanna watch it.

4) gossip girl - surprise surprise. it's not an asian drama!! but gg made d list bcause scandals that include rich but not so smart people and pretty dresses are just so fun to watch. i only decided to watch it after losing my bandwith frm watching too much kdramas on9. i watched a whole season in a span of 2 days. haha!

5) glee - just cause i love the songs and dance and have the hots for Mike Chang (played by Harry Shum, Jr.).

6) you're beautiful - i know its an old one but this is one kdrama i can watch over n over again till i can memorize d lines.

and while dramas can b pretty intense, there are days when my brain just needs some simple just for laughs variety shows. here are a few dat i follow weekly:

1) we got married - want to get away from harsh reality and dream ur fairytale love story away? watch it. and root for jo kwon n gain while ur at it.

2) running man - after the slow downfall of my fav korean variety "family outing", running man showed up. and yes, i was more den happy to know yoo jae suk and kim joong kook was in d program. with jung yong hwa frm c.n.blue showing up in recent episodes and being totally epic in d show, i think i'm starting to like running man more den WGM. after all, wen yong hwa was in WGM, i wasn't that impressed. lol. but after seeing him on running man, i have to reconsider.

as you may have realized, my list hasn't consisted of any jdramas or anime. for some reason, i haven't come across any that have really caught my attention so if u ppl hav any recommendation please do let me know. altho, i'm still following one piece anime. but the new episode releases are coming out painfully slow.

so yeah. dats my list for now. n dats prob gonna b d list untill a new wave of dramas come out.

can't wait 4 dat!!

till den, happy drama watching!

holiday liaooooooooo........

2010-10-31T12:54:00.002+13:00

IT IS DONE.

finally!! i actually have some time to write on my blog properly. it's been so hectic i feel like i've abandoned my responsibility to update my bloggie. meh, not like any1 really reads it anyway....

it's just a way of making myself feel better ever since i've completely lost my social life.

it's been awhile since i've thought about how my life's been going. everyday seemed like a wake up, go to uni, come home, sleep routine dat never ended. well, i guess dats wad u wud expect wen we have a massive group project and people who want to get epic grades. in a way, i've realized dat d only way to get the grades i'm looking for is to totally throw urself into ur projects and have no sense of night and day. and i must say theory has been proven that a life apart from architecture would make ur grades go DOWN.

ok....i STILL have a life. and i have still have friends whom i love. and i still meet new peeps every now and den but if ur askin me if i'm still d social butterfly i was 3 years ago, d answer is no. i can't even make proper first time conversations anymore. unless of course, they happen to be architecture or design students.

but all is good. sacrifices must be made sometimes. at least now i can say i've been getting my fair share of As. but from now onwards, it's time to do things apart from architecture. in fact, i've already started. nyahahaha.

so this week,

my assignments and 3rd year interior architecture finally ended on tuesday,

had an exhibition party for our design course on wednesday,

had a farewell party for our class on thursday....which marked d end of slogging for some of our peeps who decided to do a 3 year degree instead of 4,

revamped my room on friday,

slept like a log whole of saturday,

and today, i'm plannin to frighten the neighborhood kids away so i won't have to give em any candy.

ok...sister just arrived home and is dragging me out to go shopping. xD

my time wif her is limited now. cause she's an engaged woman now!!! T_T

FOBsession

2010-10-05T20:01:00.006+13:00

FOB glasses, selcas, and the satisfaction of annoying all my 'white' friends.

project fail

2010-09-07T11:22:00.002+12:00

if it's developing a concept + physical modelling...i can tell you outright i ain't good at it. i've realized that i always come up with concepts that puts me in a bin. not to mention how fail i can be at physical modelling. :( it's one of those parts of my design career that i suck so badly at it fustrates me.

and so it's just my luck to get a concept model assignment which drove me mental. thankfully, i have friends, parents and God who were there to help me every step of the way. of course, it still wasn't a splendid model...not even close. but i guess without their support i would have already been bawling my eyes out.

b cause of all d support i got, i don't feel as down as i thought i would have. cause while my project is not doing so great, i feel so blessed to have a bunch of ppl who never fails to whisk my worries away. for example, on a day when i'm on the brim of losing my mind....

my archy buddies are always there to encourage me and help get me with my design stuff

my mum is always constantly providing me food to make me feel comforted

my dad would always give me massages

my icf friends would either whip away my worries or encourage me

i feel so blessed to have so many ppl who care so much for me regardless of how whiny or emo i get. so yes, i'm learning that screwing up a project is not the end of the world cause i've screwed up like a heap of projects in the span of these past 3 years and i'm still here fighting to survive in this ever stressfull course.

it feels good to know that at the end of the day, u may not be the best at what you do, but you would still have the people you love there for you.

and dat's all that matters.

J.P.

times of change

2010-08-26T23:38:00.006+12:00

every 6 months or so, i have a dying need to change my hairstyle. i guess u can say within the span of d past 2 years i perm my hair, dyed it light brown, got it straightened, cut it to shoulder length layers, dyed it black, dyed it light brown again, and now...i recently got a short bob and dyed it red.

xD xD xD

apparently i'm voted d person who changes hairstyle most frequently amongst my friends. lolz. i dunno why. i think i find it fun and refreshing to have a change every once in awhile. kekeke. anyway i LOVE my new hair. it's cool.

here's a b4 and after pic for thy viewing pleasure.

hope u peeps like it too!

peace!

(^_^)-V

reflecting...

2010-08-18T18:47:00.003+12:00

finally the time has come!

i'll finally be stepping down from my ICF committee by the end of this week.

ever since first year, all that i've ever focused on (apart from uni work) was ICF.

anyway, i was required to write a VP report and started reflecting on how this year has been. i found it so hard to write this year mainly because this year i've buried my head in my uni work much more than serving in ICF.

while committee was still absolutely enjoyable i have to say that i've done so little for ICF this year compared to the year before. last year, i probably gave 50% to my uni work and 50% to doin ICF stuff. and due to that, my grades suffered significantly. so this year, i decided to up my game and guess what...my grades improved. ALOT. but while i've been getting good grades, on the other hand, i hardly invested time into doing things for ICF. i was so immersed in trying to get assignments and projects done and completed on time that there was only so little space left to do anything else.

so while i was writing my report, i started feeling really bad for not being the vice president that i should have been. i also felt like i've chose my own future over serving God. which really, didn't make me feel proud at all.

the complicated thing is, i can't deny that doin better in uni made me feel that i was no longer at the end of a dead road with a bleak future. that i'll at least have some amount of hirebility in me. but then when i think about it again, i'm wondering it this is the life God had planned for me. if i'm putting my whole life into my uni work at the cost of being God's servant then I don't think it's worth it.

i guess it doesn't really matter now since i'll be graduating soon. however it is a clear reminder that when i go into the working world, i'll probably b faced with the same dilemma. and hopefully then, i would know how to balance my life a bit more. it sucks when you can't multitask.

floral scented toilet paper and bieberboy

2010-08-12T10:47:00.004+12:00

now everyone can enjoy takin a dump wif the newly invented scented toilet paper! joy!

seriously?? FLORAL SCENTED TOILET PAPER?! i don't get it. why make something smell so nice when it's gonna end up on your butt and down the toilet bowl. it's like the invention of the ipad. why carry around an unfoldable A4 piece of metal when a laptop or (if u are a die hard apple fan) a macbook air or even an iphone can do the job?

people just love to come up with anything possible can they...

oh...and has anyone seen d clip wer bieberboy got owned by a water bottle?? i dunno whether to laugh or feel sorry for dat poor kid. i mean, yeah, he annoys the life out of people but i do know gettin hit by a water bottle in front of thousands of ppl ain't fun. gotta give him props for being cool abt it. xD

sorry for being so random. it's d post effects of writing a 3000 word essay.

drained!

2010-07-12T20:21:00.002+12:00

it's day one of the new trimester!....

....and i am officially exhausted.

i only had one class today but d people n events just keep comin.

plus, i'm still lacking sleep. i never got ard sleeping for 24hrs. my body just can't do dat anymore. after 6 hrs of sleep, my body wud naturally awaken n i can't go bak 2 sleep even if i still feel tired. how annoying.

i hav an early morning class 2mrw so i'm calling it a day.

...altho, it's only 8.30pm. T_T

imma gettin oldzzzzzz!!!!!

busyness ahead...

2010-07-07T23:42:00.002+12:00

i'm bak frm camp! as usual, it was great. camps are always great. but i must say tis yr was just packed with hardcore laughin. frm funny sessions to late night insanity with guy friends singing 'glee', "bad romance" and "single ladies". we even went out of camp to eat burgers and drink bubble tea with friends frm auckland. oh yeah, i love auckland alrite. way more den welly if i dare say. xD

came bak frm camp 3 days ago. been busy catching up with lots of emails and uploadin d hilarious pics taken at camp. had hot pot dinner and meeting wif my fellow icf comm members today. just finished. ders like a mountain of washing to do but i'm leavin it till 2mrw. i'm just too tired to do it now.

oh, i got my results today too. best results so far. d ironic thing is dat d course which i tot i'll do well in got lower marks den d course which i tot i'll do badly in. n damn if it wasn't 4 my lecturer giving me a D for one of my projects just cause i din attend class, i wud hav gotten a better final mark in my major paper. pfft....o wel, i'm doin better. n dats all dat matters. i'm obviously doin way better in my design classes compared to my architecture classes. is dat sayin sumthin no? but to change my degree now? sigh.....it's gonna b hard. o wel...i'll leave dat thought to rest for now. hopefully God opens doors for me.

i'm gonna b bak 2 d busy life real soon. in like abt 4 days. so not lookin 4ward to it. :(

FAIL sponge cake!

2010-06-28T16:47:00.002+12:00

i tried baking sponge cake today. it ended up flat and eggy. T_T o wel....try again some other time.

i'm off for camp 2mrw! 1 week without my beloved computer and internet. how is tis geek gonna survive huh? plus, my parents are goin for some vacation for abt a month plus d moment i arrive bak. pretty sad huh. no private transport for d next month. boo hoo. n it'll b just me and neko-chan (d neighbour's cat who thinks our home belong to her) and occasionally my sis. hehehe. (oh, good time to mention...MY SIS IS ENGAGED!! whoo....i finally get to be a maid of honor. yay!) so since she's all busy making plans wif her fiance she's hardly ard.

our family's all grown up now!! keke. it's gonna b a bit more quiet ard here 4 d next month or so. i don't like quiet but as long as d internet is by my side i'll b fine. LOL.

mid year review

2010-06-22T22:01:00.003+12:00

oh man...i'm tellin ya...everytime mid yr hols come ard, i go thru tis whole "omg, time really flies" stage. but i can't help thinkin how fast time really does flies. it's been awhile since i really had d time to really take in everything dat's been goin on. usually it's just go! go! go! one thing to the next. haha. but it's good. thinkin too much makes ppl go a bit crazy. but den again, working too much wud drive u crazy too. at d end of d day, i think the best is always having a balance of both....like everything else. everything in moderation. (^_^)-V

anyway, reviewing this first half year of 2010, it's been pretty straight foward. just set my mind on the tasks set ahead of me and do it. i don't think much abt anything else cause it can affect me a whole lot. after much "experience", i find dat wad goes on ur mind totally dictates how ur gonna feel. well, dats wad happens to me at least. i can be a pretty emo person (got it from my mum) so gotta b careful how i frame my mind set. positive thinkin seems to be working pretty well on me. and NOT having to deal wif any drama is doin me good too. xD

ahhh...first half of d year's been good.

hope d next half will be even better!!

IT'S PARTAY TIME!!!!!

2010-06-18T23:40:00.004+12:00

EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!!!

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~

i really love that feel of relief when u finally get to sit back, relax, and not worry abt anything at all...it does wonders to your mental happiness. xD

now dat i have free time, i've been getting into learning how to design websites. ON MY OWN. with NO help except from the almighty WWW. i'm starting by developing my own web portfolio which i can use in the future. it's pretty insane. d process that is. i sometimes get lost and

confused just lookin at my own html coding. xD. n den ders tis dumb issue wif IE which just likes to be a pain in d butt when it comes to formatting. my site's currently working like a charm on chrome and mozilla but it just goes psycho when i run it on IE. sum1 shud just put a destructive bug on IE and get rid of it once and for all.

anyway, other than that, all is sweet. it's actually really fun designing webs.

i noe....i is geek. haha.

it's not fully completed yet and i haven't found a web host for my site (do recommend me one) so i can't really show it to you guys yet. but here's a lil preview specially for the people who bother to read my blog. xD

ok....dat screenshot doesn't really do it justice. but u kinda get some idea of wad it might look like right? since i might actually use this site as a portfolio for potential future jobs, i had to restrain from doing anything too funky or cutesy. haha. so yes...we're going for the plain and professional.

i've got one week (i think....) till my annual mid yr camp so i'll b spending those free days workin on me webbiez n chillin wif my mates b4 dey go to wherever they're goin 4 d hols. i only got 3 weeks break tis yr but its absolutely better than nothin. i think i shud try doin something that is not related to computers. xD

hmm....since it's winter....hotpot/nabe party? knitting?

let's do housewifey things again!

J.P.

WHY?!?!?!

2010-06-15T19:15:00.003+12:00

dear mr interior architecture course coordinator,

for your course...

i gave up sleep

i gave up socializing

i gave up dancing

i gave up weekly DDR breaks

i gave up asian dramas, anime, and manga marathons

i gave up joining kpop and jrock fanclubs

i gave up MMORPGs

i gave up on dating guys

i gave up trying to make my nails look decent

i gave up trying to stop my eyesight from getting worst...

AND FOR WHAT?

so you can give me a D?! just cause i skipped some classes?!?!

how how how? how is it possible to degrade one's grade from a B+ to a D? HOW?

it's soooo not fair. i was 'that' close to finally getting a good grade for my designs and you mark me down to a D.... FOR NOT ATTENDING CLASS! i did well in my design didn't i? doesn't dat reflect dat i've been working hard even tho i don't show up for class occasionally???

cruel. so so cruel.

so near yet so far.

i almost made my break from my lousy grade streak.

but thanks to your 'i would deduct ur marks cause u fail to come to class and waste precious time', that lousy grade streak has just gotten worst.

make me clean ur entire house if you must.

just don't give me a D.

i did not sacrifice all those things just so i can have a close to failing grade on my transcript.

NO.

i do hope during moderation dat ppl wud see dat it is just not fair to give me dat kind of mark for the amount of effort i put in.

but i can fret no more. i need to focus on my exams which is 2mrw.

(btw, perfect timing to break the news to me)

at least i can comfort myself in knowing i finally achieved a design dats at least up to some reasonable standard. cause dats all dat matters.

after thought...

2010-06-11T01:25:00.003+12:00

i need to start posting some new fanatic stuff during d hols.

i haven't been fangirl-ing much since my trimester began.

busy maaaah! LOL.

yay!

2010-06-11T00:52:00.005+12:00

finished my final assignment for first trimester today! whoooooo! (^_^)-V

ders always something significant when u finally finish something....a sense of achievement? yeah...i wanna reward myself with hightops but my mum went all cranky cause they're so expensive. but i'm still gonna check em out anyway. hee.

i was workin on my CV for abit today. updating it and stuff. n was thinkin to myself....wow, every year, ders something significant listed on my record. all the way through from highschool to uni. from being involved in clubs and extra curricular activities to academic achievements. i was like....whoaa, i've done quite a bit in my life. and experienced so much. it was a real random realization. i feel like i'm really having the time of my life. lolz.

hmmm....why do i feel like i have been reminiscing alot these past few days???

nway, having a crit 2mrw morn so gotta sleep soon.

just tot i'll drop by, say hi, let u peeps noe dat i DID NOT NEED AN ALL-NIGHTER TO FINISH MY ASSIGNMENT. bigggg improvement for moi. even my fren said i've been suprizingly hardworking this trimester. lolz.

i hope i get good resultsss....cause i'm asian. xDxD

J.P.

the future that lies ahead...

2010-06-05T12:24:00.006+12:00

as i'm hitting the mid year mark of my third (and possibly final) year of my interior degree, the time has come for me to start thinking about what i might possibly want to do next year.

right now, what future options that lie ahead of me is numerous. i can either continue studying or decided to start working. if i decide to continue studying, i have an option between doing post grad or another degree. if i work, wer shud i go? stay in new zealand? go back to malaysia? singapore? australia? korea? japan? and within those options, there are even MORE options.

sometimes i have no idea what to do i just wanna stick to watching my asian dramas. before i could even finish processing the fact that i'm actually a uni student, i am now standing at the edge of one stage in my life and would very soon be stepping into another (if i decide to that is). yesterday, one of my big bros were exclaiming, "wow....someone's a big girl now!" it's amazing. one moment ur like d freshie who was admiring all your seniors' project works, n d next moment, ur actually doing those project works which u tot u could hav never done. ain't dat profound.

i find dat my thoughts about my future constantly changes as i continue exploring my field of study. i've been debating between continuing in the architecture field or trying something different like digital media design. whatever it is, i do know dat eventually i would like it to lead somewhere towards stage design and entertainment and stuff like dat.

i guess at these times when ur not sure how to go on, der's only one thing to do.

PRAY.

and God would guide you.

yeah, i know it sounds cheesy. but believe it or not, if it weren't for God's guidiance, i probably would not be as satisfied as i am today.

J.P.

winter

2010-05-27T22:28:00.002+12:00

here in welly, when it rains non stop and the temperature goes below 10, it officially marks winter. d weather has been pretty crappy these days but i don't mind since i actually like winter clothing compared to summer clothing. u get to accessorize with cute stuff!! lol. plus, i really love snuggling up at home while it rains outside. it reminds you of how blessed you are to have a nice warm shelter over ur head.

anyways, i've got less than 2 more weeks of uni!! (^_^) i'm suprizingly not too stressed at d moment cause i'm up to date with most of my assignments n they're quite spread apart from each other. i've got exams this time round so not going to get much of a holiday again. i have camp too. xD but alls good.

it's Friday 2mrw! yay! can't wait 4 d weekend.

J.P.

nosebleed of the day

2010-05-22T00:35:00.002+12:00

nosebleed of the day: http://twitpic.com/1pmbui

yes. it's all thanks to 2pm junsu, fan service, and twitter.

speaking of twitter, we were talking about it info101 tutorial today n how twitter was the new 'word-of-mouth' method for makerting and advertising. i actually found it interesting.

i'm really turning into a geek. considering my face is in front of a computer almost the whole day everyday, i feel completely helpless whenever there's a power cut. i mean, i use the comp for EVERYTHING. from studying to watching anime to buying stuff online. i never thought it would ever be possible to live a life with ur face stuck to the comp screen 24/7 but now, i actually think it's possible. not the healthiest lifestyle, but possible.

don't worry, i still engage in human social activity and try and go DDR once a week. wait....DDR is technically a computer to right? darn....

looks like i need to do some knitting.

study study study...(X_X)

2010-05-12T16:36:00.003+12:00

howdy...it's been awhile...ok, it hasn't been dat toooo long ago but i'm telling yah....these past few weeks felt like forever. well, mayb dats cause all i do is sleep, wake up, study study study, eat, study study study, eat, sleep. oh, and go for my club meetings. yup dats me. summed up in one sentence. pretty sad. i really miss those days when cutting class everyday wudn't cost u ur grades. but my courses have come up with a new format where we have to hand in exercises every week n dey would count towards our final grade. so yeah....we practically have to study our butts off every week.

i went out last saturday to celebrate me bday wif me uni buddies. oh... no, wait, it was d saturday before last (see how screwed up i am??). we did all my fav asian things...had korean for dinner, den went to hav bubble tea and play board games till like 12am, den went to play pool (d only non-asian thing we did) n den went clubbin at wer else but my fav asian club, Rain. prob got back ard 4am. and for d following entire week, we were walking zombies. just proves dat our age is catching up with us. HAHAHA. but i must say it was a really good and fun night. my frens even got me pressies! a lil jap momiji doll, sunnies, and anna sui perfume. (*_*) i'm tellin yah...my frens really noe wad i like. haha. dey are an awesome bunch.

nway, dats my ramble for today. hope i can come up wif sumthing more interesting to talk abt nxt time to waste both of our precious time. toodles.

Twitter: Yay or Nay?

2010-04-25T01:42:00.002+12:00

3 down and 1 to go! for assignments dat is... kekeke. tis last one is a 3000word essay so i'm doin my best to avoid it at the moment...don't worry....i've done like abt....1%. it's just not really happening for me tonight. too many bday msgs flowing in from facebook to txt msgs.

o yeah...it's officially my bday. i turned 2 decades old abt an hour and 45 mins ago. yayy! which reminds me....I FORGOT TO MAKE MY YEARLY BDAY WISHLIST!!!! just proves how busy i've been.

for the first time ever since i signed up for twitter, i spent one hour on it. ONE HOUR. and you ask...what's so good bout twitter anyway? it's all boring updates abt other ppl n u bore-ing people with your updates. i use to think that too...untill i found taec frm 2pm on twitter. and oh good Lord...now i know why these asian fanatics dig twitter so much. u see, all these popular kpop artists actually have twitters in which they use to communicate with fans. and since twitter is international, people ard the world get to send them msgs too. and so, even people like me who lives at the edge of the world get to send tweets to my fav artists. =D yes yes....it's not like they have the time to read all the tweets they get but it's just the thought i guess. n some artists actually do reply some of their tweets...like TOP. he's such a cool guy.

but that aside, say u're not the kind who's into following any artists or celebrity or any popular person on twitter, do u still think twitter is of any use? and if so, why? cause if i were me without my asian fanatical obsession, i'd prob think twitter was pretty useless. what say you?

-JP-

p.s. Gazette's on Twitter too!! MUAHAHHA! life had just gotten better even with my 3000 word essay due in 3 days.

anti essay writing

2010-04-17T00:46:00.002+12:00

guess what...i just found out from my friend dat we were sps 2 submit one of our assignments tis morning. on the paper it was written due Monday 19th Apr. who knew there would be a fine print stating it had to be submitted today. this is the first time i missed d submission date. urgh. so now i'm pulling an all-nighter just to get it done. frickin 1000 word essay! T_T it's so dumb...who would want to hav a assignment submission during d holidays??? wad is wrong with these people.

u wanna noe wad i'm thinkin now? i'm thinkin screw this. i'm goin 2 sleep. i'll just finish it up 2mrw morn. it's pass d due date anyway. i'm just gonna say i didn't know we were sps 2 submit it in today. which is the truth. and of all things...an essay. i protest. holidays shud b holidays. not holidays so we can do assignments till our bones are dry. and what come after this is a 3000 word essay. even better. anyone keen on writing that for me???

yup. i'm goin 2 sleep. i'm being totally unproductive right now.

wish me luck.

-JP-

If you won a million dollars what would you do with it?

2010-04-16T23:19:00.001+12:00

put it in my bank? million dollars ain't dat much these days...

Ask me anything

update...

2010-04-15T22:11:00.006+12:00

i'm back! well....i was away for the weekend. and i'm back. xD had a camp at a marae. it was pretty fun altho was a bit gutted at how evryone slept so early. only me n 2 other guys stayed up on d last nite. and only till like 2. but at least we had a good chat. ^^ franky n ryan, u guys r awesome! xD

i'm taking a break frm my assignment at d moment. got 2 down and 2 more to go. currently having a 2 week break but really doesn't feel like one at all. pfft.

so my birthday is in abt more den a week but i doubt i'll b celebrating it till d week after cause of all my assignments which are all brilliantly due all on d same week. 2 decades old!!!! nooooo! haha. but really, i can't complain cause 99% of my frens here in nz are older den me. dey give me death looks when i say i feel old. but honestly, i feel like a yapping old bird. people who are my age are just starting uni and here i am thinking if i shud get uni over n done with n graduate or do my masters. (>_<) oh well....altho i might b another year older, i'm still defying aging. xD

slogging is the path to success

2010-03-30T20:51:00.004+13:00

for the first time in 3 friggin years, my tutor went, "wow" at my design. and trust me, for a person who has been getting bloody 'C's, that comment revived my dying spirit. i've been stuck in a rut whole of last year and it's been continuing on to my first project which, by the way, i got a C for. And at that time, in my mind, I was thinking.... that's it. I'm graduating with a shitty looking transcript.

today, when my tutor got all excited abt my project, i went ecstatic cause i've finally got something working for me. my motivation level went from -5 to 10. haha. i have to give it to my tutor tho (who happens to be the lecturer/ course coordinator). unlike other tutors who just give you stoned faces when u're struggling, he's really inspiring and gives great ideas. there's some students who wud have nothing but he'll still help them anyway. other tutors wouldn't even be bothered talking to you if you had nothing to show.

i'll have to say tho, now, my tutor has completely up his expectations on me. which means i have to work even harder. i can't say i just woke up one day and BAM! i had my design. i've been sloggin on it throughout the weekend till "my soul left my body". not literally. it's a metaphor that i use to describe me when i immense myself in nothing but work and you're body doesn't react to anything else. not even food. i even passed on a L4D gaming session with my frens. (T_T) so yeah....hard work pays off. but of course, in architecture, hard work means working to the limit. so working harder means having no sense of day and night. xD

but now, i need sleep. a good 12 hour sleep to make up for all the lack of sleep.

sleep is good.

10 random things

2010-03-28T23:28:00.002+13:00

1) Shimmy is no.1..........on this list.

2) Zoro's "santoryuu" is badass.

3) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MdczygMkzDc

4) nutella or peanut butter?

5) ders a 90% chance dat all these out-of-the-world lateral thinking interior designs they challenge us to do in uni would never be practiced once we graduate. unless....you're a stage designer.

7)http://i44.tinypic.com/729bmt.jpg...these are hot!.....on guys.

8) pronounce this: !xobile

9) Nichkhun studied in nz!! (=^^=)

10) INFO 101 is my fav class....for reasons that only Lai knows.

what motivates you?

2010-03-24T22:24:00.007+13:00

what motivates me?

1) people's encouragement - the power of words can be amazing. when i feel like strangling myself over a project, the phrase "you can do it" makes you feel a tid better. the phrase "i'll suffer with you" makes you feel a ton better cause den you noe ur not suffering alone. the phrase "i'll help you" makes you feel like someone is saving you from drowning. also, a hot cup of milo from my mum delivered into my room at 2am does wonders.

2) the fact that even if all else fails, I'll still have God - sometimes wen I hit a roadblock I go into a state of fear of failing. n den i just won't b able to do anything but freak. but knowing that God is in control and i just have to do what i can encourages me to persevere. (oohhh....i sound so wise...)

3) food - nothing is better den having a good meal to be replenished and energized. altho....sometimes, i end up falling asleep if had too much.

4) music - silence can be really depressing. of course, it won't work if you're trying to write an essay but it does wonders when you're spending hours designing something on the computer. doin work doesn't seem to draggy with music on. noise works well too. 4am doesn't feel too bad when u noe another person in d house is up (altho that person might be playing card games on the computer while u're sloggin away a.k.a my dad).

5) hot asian boys - nothin motivates me to go for lectures more than eye candy. lectures can be really boring (and sometimes useless) and the temptation to skip class is ever so great. but when ders a hottie in class, u kinda want to go just to satisfy ur eyes. i dunno bout u guys but it's enough to drag my butt to class. n once u're in d lecture room, u hav no choice but to sit thru it all. sometimes u come out with something useful. sometimes u just waste 40 minutes of ur precious time. but hey, at least dat wud b 40 minutes worth of looking at the back of a hot guy's head speculating his hairstyle while the lecturer drones on and on.

I am an idealist....apparently.

2010-03-10T18:31:00.002+13:00

Ever tried those personality test thingies??? those that are scientifically proven like the Myers-Briggs-Jung personality assessment...gets people all hyped up abt themselves...yeah, for some reason, i keep being asked to take all sorts of versions of the test. and u noe wad? all d results are the same! pretty cool.

we were doing this personality thingy during our icf committee retreat so we can get a glimpse of what each other are like. i got ENFP (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/ENFP). extroverted, intuitive, feeling, perception. then, this week, in our management course, we were ask to take the keirsey test in which i happen to get Idealist....which ENFP is catagoized under.

i think it's awesome being described as an ENFP. we are like the happy bubbles in life. haha.

what do you folks think? do i seem like an ENFP to you? what's yours? any guys out there that digg ENFP chicks?? lol....juzzz kiddin!

flappin me wingz

2010-03-03T23:19:00.002+13:00

UNI HAS BEGUN!!!

and by day 1, we are being drowned by assignments. already, we hav a 500 word essay due by the end of this week. n den turned out i really cudn't take d elective i wanted so tried another elective which turned out to be a 7000 word research paper. obviously not wad i wanna do so i'm changing it again....to a 'stress free' course called INFO101.

den on tues, we had to go on those reluctant site visits. climbed the ever so steep Kelburn hill. and den helped out at my ICF booth for club's week. den went back down all d way to archy school to do some work. den went all ard hunting for a book i never found. gave up and just studied in d lib. my legs died dat day.

slept d whole day today. was really exhausted. still am. it's gonna b a long week. trying hard to stay on top of things. really really hard. since all my body wants to do is sleep. which i'm gonna continue doing right now....xD

Epic Dancin Robots

2010-02-19T17:46:00.003+13:00

this is why we need geeks in the world.

Star Dance Battle

2010-02-18T12:55:00.002+13:00

Lunar New Year Star Dance Battle

Round 1: http://www.allkpop.com/2010/02/star-dance-battle-round-1-mblaq-vs-rainbow

Round 2: http://www.allkpop.com/2010/02/star-dance-battle-round-2-t-ara-vs-beast

Rond 3: http://www.allkpop.com/2010/02/star-dance-battle-round-3-gag-men-trio-vs-gag-women-trio

Round 4: http://www.allkpop.com/2010/02/star-dance-battle-round-4-after-school-vs-snsd

Round 5: http://www.allkpop.com/2010/02/star-dance-battle-round-5-kim-dragon-vs-sun-a

Round 6: http://www.allkpop.com/2010/02/star-dance-battle-round-6-2pm-vs-super-junior

which do you think is the best? i loved Suju's performance the most. was real creative.

as for the girls, i liked after school's dance

and d gag men/women trios were just hilarious

ahh...i just love korean entertainment.

d summer spent in welly

2010-02-16T19:37:00.003+13:00

me, mum and pops in cchurch punting

as summer hols are almost over, and dat i hardly wrote anything over d summer (just cause i'm at d laziest moment of my life), i tot maybe i shud just let yall noe wad i've been doin over d summer...

1) watch anime and dramas..of coz

2) read heaps of manga...of coz

3) play Gaia...till i'm pro

4) went dragnetting

5) went to south island

6) spent NY and CNY with friends

7) knit.

8) reformatted my comp and pimped it...with help from my geeky fwen.

9) fail to get a job....thus didn't earn any money.

10) SLEEP.

drawing: random blonde pretty boy

2010-02-16T17:19:00.003+13:00

hand-drawn, coloured in photoshop

original drawing by lilpunkinpie

Febby

2010-02-11T21:19:00.002+13:00

the month of LOVE had always been pretty excruciating. d years when i wish i had someone to go 'pak toh' with and d year wen i finally cud but cudn't cause i was thousands of miles away. thankfully, this yr wudn't b too bad....cause it so happens to b first day of CNY which means der's parties which means i don't have to sit at home alone with instant cup noodles and watch sappy romantic chick flicks shown on national tv. joy.

but valentines is just part of it. Febby is also the month wer things start to get bz and ur carefree days are numbered. and so it is. before i know uni wud begin, life wud get bz n i'll have to say goodbye to doing absolutely NOTHING. went to uni today to print and cut some flyers for ICF and bumped into a few uni mates already preppin for d yr ahead. dats wen it hit me hard. say hello to uni life again. not that i'm saying uni is such a sufferable thing. it's just hectic. dats all.... i mean, d days spent living in my own world can be soooo good. but hey, everyone's gotta face d realities of life. tough luck.

so yeah....summer break's almost at it's end. a year ahead to 'look foward' to. wish me all the best.

enrolment blues

2010-02-02T19:15:00.000+13:00

yes, enrolling for courses wen dey just changed our degree structure is a mighty pain in d butt. now dat we need to take electives we need to choose a course dat fits our scheduel. d problem? it's either we aren't allowed to take dat certain elective or it clashes with our core courses. i manage to get into my elective. d only problem is dat it overlaps with one of my other courses. but it ain't too bad considering i might have ways ard it. my poor friend on d othr hand had applied for THREE different elective courses and couldn't get into a single one. it's stupid. d university obviously haven't sort out d kinks in our new degree structure and we are currently goin mad cause of it. oh well, u'd never noe wad dey'll change even in d first week back to uni. imagine dat, things are still not solid even in d first week. pfft. so i'm adopting d wait and see method for now. from here on, leave it to God to straighten things out. (^_^)-V

addicted to zOMG

2010-01-30T03:04:00.003+13:00

ain't my avatar awesome?

wad's zOMG you ask? it's a MMORPG. wad's MMORPG?...haha, go to a cybercafe and ask one of those dudes that pratically live there. keke. nwayz, saw d gaia on9 ad while watching anime and decided to check it out, found d games, found zOMG and walah!...i was addicted. lol. don't worry, i'll stop playing it once uni starts....i hope....i'm not much of a gamer (honest!).....tho i prob wud hav been if my mum didn't deprive me of a ps or an xbox.

i noe....LAME....or at least that's wat my sis wud say. and come ask me if i'm still into it in a months time...haha! but for now, let's play.

knitting: scarf and glubs

2010-01-12T15:37:00.003+13:00

my very first completed knitting project!!! rawr!

did it over christmas and new years.

yeah, i noe....it's like summer and i'm doin knitting. but den again, it hasn't been much of a summer so far. haha.

re: malaysia heading for doom

2010-01-11T13:15:00.007+13:00

the time has come. a time where no matter what you say, no matter how much you plead, no matter how hard you try to open their eyes, we mere humans just can't change hearts that's set in stone.

whatever we say, it's called brainwashing. so i would not start a lecture. i would not beg. but just so you know, my heart aches. (go ahead and laugh. what's wrong with being sappy?) do you think that just cause i'm not there i can't feel the pain? yes, i'm a thousand miles away. yes, i have no idea wad's really goin on back there. yes, i'm one of those people who apparently betrayed my own country just cause i think the education system here is better. but never have i thought that malaysia wasn't my home. once, i was in love with the diversity we had and how we could discover new and different things from one another each and every day. but now, the exact same thing that made my country so beautiful is destroying it. maybe i don't know the details. maybe what i'm being told is just dramatisized. but what i do know is that what is happening is not something you just shrug off your shoulder and say these things happen.

we all ask: who is to blame for it? the government? the malays? the chinese? the indians? i'll tell you: all of us. it's our mindset. when one steps on someone's foot, the only 'right' thing to do is to return the favour. have we all forgotten about forgiveness, tolerence, and understanding? do what we all want is to fight? all in the name of pride and rights?

yea, i know...if you don't fight den you'll just get stepped on right? what about solving things with respect for one another? don't have to go on a rampage throwing rocks just to get what you want. i'm talking about both sides here. your opponents aren't any less of a human then you are. so why are you treating each other like animals?

but i guess we can't be idealistic anymore huh? it seems to me that hate has gone so far to a point of no return. words that have been said and deeds that have been done can't be taken back. inflicted wounds have ran too deep far beyond healing. and so it only continues to builds up. and it will only follow onto future generations.

my voice is only that small and i alone can only sit here and type till my fingers are sore. after all, i'm only another person wishing for happiness and peace. funny....happiness and peace sounds so cliche these days. seems we've really given hope.

NO. i'll like to think that there is still hope even if everyone says "malaysia is heading for doom". that's why....maybe....it's worth saying, "think about it". think about how can you be part of the solution and not the problem. it doesn't hurt to be a lil bit more positive you know.

2010 Resolutions

2010-01-05T12:24:00.002+13:00

i don't know why i bother doing this when the likelyhood of me achieving any of these resolutions is abt 20%. to be honest, i only achieved abt one or two resolutions (out of ten) that i made in 2009. haha! yeah...embarrassing. but hey, better having some goals for the year then nothing. i just hve to remember what they are and put some intentional effort in achieving them. so without further ado....

JP's 2010 New Year's Resolutions

1) i will do well in uni. it's gotta b B+ and above this year for every single assignment. seems impossible but nothing is impossible rite? have to anyway...if i want a good looking GPA when i graduate. looks like it's time to go hardcore.

2) i will make new friends (friends. not acquaintances.) this year in efforts to improve my social skills. funny tho...cause if i go hardcore on studying i prob won't even have time to socialize.

3) i will exercise. i don't care what it is...dancing, DDR, running, boxing, zumba...

4) i will lose 5kgs. I WILL!

5) i will get my driving licence.

6) i will earn money. somehow....

7) i will be patient with my aging parents. esp my dad.

8) i will not go shopping. untill my trip to thailand.

9) i will learn how to make tiramisu and cheescake. i've learnt to make heaps of food in 2009 so i'll continue to do so.

10) i will continue to serve God. wholeheartedly.

to commemorate these resolutions and start embracing this new year, i'll be fasting on meat for a week. take it as a symbol of dedication to my goals this year and to pray and prepare myself for the things to come.

have a good 2010 everyone!!

my NY's message to ICF

2009-12-31T12:20:00.003+13:00

Dear ICFers,

Yes, another year has quickly passed by…in fact, a whole decade has quickly passed by ever since we entered the new millenium! wheee~ i’m sure when we all look back, we’ve all come quite a long way.

This year has been a great one. We’ve seen many friends of ours come to know Christ (praise GOD!) and made many meaningful relationships. We’ve seen members grow to become leaders themselves in many different ways. From bible study group leaders to offering to help out willingly to doin the miniscule things that go by unnoticed. And for that, we are entirely grateful and blessed to have you guys (and girls) serve ICF. Personally, after a whole tiring week at uni, i was always looking foward to ICF on Fridays. It was always uplifting. And if there were times when things weren’t going too well, Ramsey House was the place to be on a Friday night to get a boost of encouragement. ^^

Events were always fun even though it doesn’t always go as planned. I remember a particular incident where we had a bubble tea night. We were suppose to have bubble tea but the tapioca balls got ruined. so we had to have bubble tea without the bubbles! But it didn’t matter cause in the end, everyone just had a good time all the same.

Ahhh….those were good times. But what’s even better is what we have in stall for us next year. I believe God would continue to bless us in 2010 (twenty-ten or two-thousand-and-ten…call it whatever you like) as much as He had this year. I believe that great things would come. Both to ICF and to each one of us individually. Therefore, I encourage everyone to continue praising God and givin ur all to Him. Never limit what God can do.

So, for the sake of being sentimental and all, i leave you a poem…

“Another fresh new year is here . . .

Another year to live!

To banish worry, doubt, and fear,

To love and laugh and give!

This bright new year is given me

To live each day with zest . . .

To daily grow and try to be

My highest and my best!

I have the opportunity

Once more to right some wrongs,

To pray for peace, to plant a tree,

And sing more joyful songs!”

Obviously, I didn’t write that poem. I’m not that talented. Credits to someone named William Arthur Ward (an American pastor). But i found it really inspiring and I hope it inspires yall too.

It was fun diggin into God’s word together, eating together, playing and joking together, and doin life together. May next year just be as awesome.

Till den, see yall next year! BABEH!

love, JP

...and onto the new year!

2009-12-29T22:11:00.002+13:00

i was plannin to upload sum pics of the food i cooked (and my knitting...lol) for Christmas. but bandwith's been running on bare minimum because i'm just brilliant in spammin bandwith since my sister isn't ard...hee hee....so photos gonna have to wait...

anyway, plans ain't dat big for new year's either. just gonna hangout wif a few ppl....maybe hit town if possible...but quite unlikely.....KAYY! ELLE! missin u guys BIG TIME now.....i don't wanna spend another summer in nz. ever. it just ain't KL ya noe.....

sigh....maybe i shud just start cookin up my next year's resolutions....not like i put that much thought into it cause i end up not sticking to anything on dat list...pfft.

i'm soooo bored! bored outa my brains. actually, der are things still left to be done but can't bring myself to do anything useful. pathetic am i? n den wanted to chat wif ppl....but hardly any1 is on9....i'd have to be up at 4am if i wanted to chat. -.-

can't stay in d hse any longer. i'll go nutss.

-JP-

Christmas shoutouts

2009-12-26T01:26:00.002+13:00

To...

my beloved family; Mum, dad, and sis,

relatives,

my best buds; kayy, elle, bie, sham, cna,

my uni buddies; lai, karen, anin, maggie,

my lil bros; matt, maison, edward,

all ICFers (and CUers),

friends from church, conferences and random get-togethers,

ex-skoolmates and archy frens,

internet buddies,

DDR buddies,

we-love-being-asian buddies,

and

my Facebook network (which pretty much sums up most of d ppl i noe).

WISHIN U ALL A MERRY CHRISTMAS.

may blessings come your way.

love, JP.

absence of a christmas ritual

2009-12-23T22:29:00.003+13:00

is this how Christmas is like in nz?

despite living here for abt 3 years now, this would be my first christmas in nz. n yes, it seems to feel abit different. if i were in kl now, i'll prob b goin to one christmas party after another and ending it with a bang wif my buddies in either 1U, the curve, klcc, or jln bkt bintang. oh those times were epic. ahh....makes me start missin msia all over again. not to mention comic fiesta was on beginin of tis week. seeing all d pics my frens uploaded made me really wish i was der.

but since this year ders no big christmas parties, no crazy friends to celebrate with, no random group dates with ppl we meet at parties....it feels abit awkward. instead, it's a family concert at a park, carolling at an old folks home, trips to see nicely christmas decorated houses, and days spent at home watching dramas. d only party i was invited to was a christmas party at Rain bar (wth?!). i'd wud hav gone if... 1) der was actually ppl to go with, 2) it weren't just dancing and drinkin, 3) it wasn't such a dodgy place.

not to say Christmas parties in kl were any less dodgy but there were some which were really good. those where you get to watch Alternate Frequency play LIVE and have jumbo meals. why can't there b a Christmas party with the Parachute band? dat wud b cool.

but i guess at the end of d day, d ppl just aren't ard. most of em back in their hme countries for d hols. n even if dey were ard, most of em r spending it wif their parents. which, for once, i wud b too. haha. oh well, take this chance to continue domesticating myself by learning how to cook a christmas meal. maybe shud make some corn pudding. dat'll b nice.

dating boom

2009-12-22T21:32:00.003+13:00

it must have been the year for everyone to get together. i've been catching up n reading my buddies' blogs and guess wad....dey're all talkin bout some relationship....

Blog #1 - i fell in love

Blog #2 - .....and den we went to... and den ate.... and den went to... and den... and den... (yeah, u get the point)

Blog #3 - i miss you, i love you, i keep thinking of you...ect ect ect

Blog #4 - love is like turbulance, one day we're happy, d next day we're fighting

and it goes on and on....and it ain't just one post sometimes....it'll b a whole page worth of relationship ranting. you fall in love, you den babble till my eyes fall off abt how sweet he/she is, den one fine day i start to see a lifetime's worth of complainin abt how he/she doesn't understand you. yes, ain't love like that....

can't blame em. love makes you talk alot. kinda remember those days when all i talk abt is my love life. *cringes* not like i don't have one to blab abt now....but based on experience, better kept to oneself. gossip is venomous. yeah yeah, i'm a party pooper....whatever. wait till u get ur share of being the 'hot topic'. heck, u don't even need to say anything sometimes. it just happens. people these days must b really bored.

dat aside, man...everyone seems to be pairing up. EVERYONE. tis yr esp. it's like a dating boom. it's quite extraordinary. but it sucks in a way too....cause it's like one less person to hang with cause they're forever on a date. poo. pfft...doesn't matter. korean dramas are all good.

as for me? nah, i pass. if relationships are as complicated as the ones i've been reading abt, i think i'll go crazy.

cooking: Christmas shu cream puffs (^_^)-v

2009-12-17T15:18:00.004+13:00

I did it! YATTAH! with epic success. muahahaha!

no, it's not a picture i stole from a website okay...don't be mean. it's 100% authentic.

it's true. i'm not much of a baker or a cook if you ask me but hey, at least i didn't burn the food (or the kitchen) to charcoal. n to be honest, they were pretty darn good n dey look EXACTLY like the way shu cream puffs shud look. *proud of oneself* it's like one big leap towards female domestication for me. heh.

yesterday i made sushi too. but my family finished dem off before i cud even put dem properly on a plate. the moment i cut em roles, dey were gone. but i'm glad. cause my mum who doesn't even like sushi said it was good. happiii. ^^

yes, since i haven't been able to find a job, i've been workin towards being a housewife....NOT. i'm just expanding my horizons. lolzz.

come over to my place next time. i'll bake em 4 yah!
JP

my christmas wishlist

2009-12-09T22:34:00.008+13:00

christmas is in abt 2 weeks + time. and for once, i actually i have a wishlist. of course, this wishlist is pretty unrealistic cause everything in here is a WANT not a NEED and everything is just something i can't afford or impossible to have. but hey, dat's why it's called a WISHlist. so....

JP's 2009 Christmas Wishlist

1) Pig-Rabbit plushie - For those who watched d kdrama You're Beautiful, you know what i'm talking about. And yes, they do have it for real. I found it on yesasia.com. The problem? it's USD50. who d heck wud buy a plushie for 50 bucks?! but den again....how much were those original Disney plushies? nway, d pig-rabbit plushie doesn't come wif d famous adorable hairpin. instead, d hairpin replica is sold for another USD50. n of coz d pig-rabbit has to have d hairpin. it ain't d pig-rabbit without it. so total comes up to USD100 (minus shippin). ders a reason it's no1 so if you really really love me and have money to throw away, this wud win my heart. oh...n if you think dat ain't enough, u can add d photobook along with it. ^^ good luck with that...

2) Red checkered Nikes - i see them in the shoe shop i pass by EVERYDAY. n it's killin me. mom, says no cause i already have a pair of hightops and its abt NZD200. yup, it's a pretty expensive pair of Nikes. but you see, i love hightops, i love Nike, and i love checks. how can i NOT want it? i wonder if it's cheaper in spore? do dey even have it der? still, i bet my mum would still say no. but she can't say no if it's a present rite? *hints hints*

3) X-box 360 - for stress relieving purposes. very important.

4) NZD1000 - for international online clothes shoppin - i always love those korean online boutiques but can't afford to buy anythin....or more like i can but i'm too stingy with my money. T^T

5) GazettE's "Verwelktes Gedicht" Photobook - only cause they have really pretty pictures of them from their Cassis MV. if not, Alice Nine's "Dive Into the Sun" Photobook can do too altho i hav quite a number of pics from dat photobook already.

6) Domokun hoodie - sometime ages ago, i mentioned i wanted a domokun hoodie. i'm still waiting on it...xD

7) superfast internet with unlimited bandwith - so i can download all my asian dramas, anime, and games non-stop. of course, don't think ders such a deal here in nz. so this is pretty much impossible to get. heck, it shudn't even be on this list since pirating is a crime and all. but hey, it's not like i don't want to buy d originals. i mean if i did buy all the originals for the amount of dramas and anime i've watched, i'll b either dirt poor or a person with a hundred thousand dollar debt.

8) one year's supply of Indo-mee migoreng - dat's it. no need for explanation.

9) Borders vouchers - so i can buy more manga n read it like it sps to be read.

10) all the hottest asian guys in the world - hey, one can dream big rite? (^_^)-V obviously, i just didn't have anything else to put for no.10. hehe.

natsumi....

2009-12-08T22:02:00.003+13:00

summer is here. well, not really actually. one day it's summer, d next is winter. oh wel, dat's wellington for you. i've been pretty busy so far. apart from a few days of lazing and me time, my scheduel has been pretty hectic. don't know if dats a good thing or not. i mean, i STILL haven't got my learners yet.....grrr.....n every weekend is either someone's birthday or some event goin on. not dat i'm complainin in anyway...

just dat i've been recently becoming more and more reluctant to socialize for some reason. other than hangin and catching up with good friends, i haven't been particularly excited to talk to anyone else or be in a place where you just talk to heaps of ppl. i find i prefer to just sit in my fav bookstore, have a cup of hot white choc, and read manga for a good 6 hours (dat's wad i actually did today). i wonder, is this the result of having a whole years worth of having to have people in my face 24/7?

today we went to the foundation skool (yes, it's on during summer) to chat wif some ppl n try promoting our icf club. n gosh, i just cudn't bring myself to chat up a conversation. all i wanted to do was return home n hibernate. i'm starting to think i have some serious issues. but den again, right now, now dat it's summer, i seriously just want to do my own thing and have my REST....but wad i seem to be getting up to are more things to do, more "responsibility", more requirements to take part in social networking....blahblahblah....argh! it's driving me nuts. it's like i just can't get away from having to do something.

i noe all this socializing thing is important. n heck, i do like socializing. but right now, i'm just not so into it. and what more, everything that seems to come up in a conversation is either so darn depressing or ders just nothin to talk abt. maybe it's just the people i've been talking to these days. all my good conversation buddies are gone for d hols except one! n dat one person is workin....sigh....so sad....

*tears* can i go home?

backdated update

2009-11-25T12:50:00.005+13:00

written on 25th Nov 2009...

i'm home from camp! actually, i've been back since sunday but i've been out and about hangin wif ppl for the last few days. anyways, i've been away at SLC camp for a week pondering and socializing. to be honest, i think i socialized more den i pondered tis yr. as usual, i was up till really late every night playing sum random game or chatting. by the time i got back to welly, i was ready to sleep for 24hrs. but ended up spending 2 days hanging wif a bunch of aucklanders i met at camp who came down to welly to chill b4 flying back to auck. so yeah...i didn't really get much sleep till monday evening. and den i slept n slept n slept untill 3pm d following day. n den went for a movie last nite n ended sleeping over at a frens place. hahaha. pretty full on don't u think?

i noe i noe, i'm sooo backdated. i've just been real lazy to think and write these days. started writing n den got lazy half way thru. heh heh. post camp syndrom as usual i guess. lol. nways, been totally lost from reality watching you're beautiful. it's REALLY good. better den boys b4 flowers i reckon. or mayb i'm just biased since i'm completely in love with all d mains. kekeke. yes, dat drama is just an explosion of cuteness. kyaa! i can't wait till the final ep (wif subs) is out.

*mind wonders off somewhere else*

ummm yeah.....dat's me for nw. i'll b back once i'm done daydreaming.

kdrama obsession

2009-11-15T22:32:00.004+13:00

yes, my asian drama obsession is back again. tis time its kdramas. ders been quite a chunk of kdramas which have been featuring my fav kpop boys and i'm dying to watch dem (sigh....if only i had unlimited bandwith). anyway, this is my list so far:-

you're beautiful (lee hong ki frm F.T Island) - cute! cute! cute! apparently d "new boys before flowers"

heaven's postman (jaejoong frm DBSK) - sounds really sweet.

heading to the ground (yuhno frm DBSK) - apparently this was kinda a flop so don't think i'm watchin it. but it's yunho.....

IRIS (TOP frm Big Bang) - it's those killing kind of dramas so i'd prob only watch it for the sake of watching TOP's cold blooded stare. hee...

you're my pet (kim hyun joong frm SS501) - it's just a rumour but apparently der wud b a korean version of kimi wa petto. i've watched d jap one wif matsumoto jun in it and i found it pretty good so i'm kinda keen on seeing how hyun joong's gonna measure up to the adorkable matsu jun. hahaha. which come to think abt it, wad's up wif hyun joong acting in the korean versions of jdramas matsu jun acts in? prob just a coincidence i guess. lol. after all, he didn't play d same role as matsu jun in hana yori dango/boys before flowers.

on the side note, i can't wait to watch ninja assasin!!!!!!!!!!! i saw d trailer d other day n it looks pretty wicked. i hope the movie wud b as wicked too. *fingers crossed*. But it's Rain, so i don't think i'll b dissapointed. haha. plus, lee joon frm MBLAQ wud b acting as teenage Rain in d movie and as most of my friends noe, i'm obsessed with his abs ever since their oh yeah debut MV. apparently he's bald in d movie (T_T) but it's ok cause i still get to see his abs. lol.

on another side note, i'm yet again in love with another of taeyang's song: wedding dress. d MV, as usual, is real good too. tis one has a story to it. it's like he likes this girl and was planning to propose to her but at the same time some other guy who happens to be a friend of his proposes to her one second earlier befor he did. how tragic is dat??? ahhh....u just gotta watch it and hear it for yourself.

ok......i think dats enough obsession for one day.

oh oh, one more...i wanna watch 19 (a kmovie starring TOP and seungri) too!

d time of d year for...birthdays!

2009-11-13T12:20:00.005+13:00

for some very odd reason, most of my friends' birthdays are at the end of the year (Nov, Dec). i wish my bday was at d end of d year too. when ders no assignments or tests or tests or even classes whatsoever. thinkin bout my bday tis yr (which was model making in my friend's garage) is kinda depressing. i mean, who would want to say no when ppl want to celebrate ur bday but have to say no anyway cause of an assignment??? NOBODY!! but anyway, let's 4get abt dat.

back to my original point: since most of my frens are having bdays ard tis time of d yr, ders been an explosion of birthday invites. even better, this yr, ders quite a bunch of 21st to go to (yeah, most of my frens are older den me). starting as of today, der's one 21st 2nite, followed by a BBQ bday party 2mrw noon, n den one more 21st in d evening. crazy huh? n ders more to come later on...haha!

it's good. keeps my scheduel busy. lol. in fact, i have been out almost everyday hanging n meeting peeps. so much so i haven't had a chance to look for a job (tho i handed in my resume to a few places yestersday) or get my leaners which shud hav been done agessss ago. like 2 yrs ago. heh. o wel, it's still early. i have 3 more months to do everything on my summer list. ^^

hair obsession

2009-11-11T21:40:00.003+13:00

i've been real obsessed with stylin my hair these days (or watching azn guys style their azn hair which for some reason i find very attractive....call me crazy). not too long ago, i cut my hair from curlz to straight layers. today, i dyed my hair. blonde. at least dat's wad it said on d box. my hair turned out to be light brown in the end.

ever since i got my hair cut and dyed my mum's been comin in to my room every morning commenting how jap i look. haha. uh, yea.....dat was wad i was aiming for. V-(^_^)

happiness explosion

2009-11-05T19:36:00.003+13:00

today was a really good day. got to hang out wif my uni buddy, watched a weird movie, and came home to find an email telling me i got an A- for one of my uni assignments. :D so happeee!!! ^^ it's not everyday i get to see a good mark so i'm pretty pleased. after all, i put heaps of time and effort into that project. i told my sis if i didn't get an a- or an a for that assignment, i would be pretty upset. and i got an a-. so praise the Lord.

it's also guy fawkes day today. hanabi day!!! suits the occasion don't you think? haha. however, i don't think i'm gonna watch it since i watch it every year. i just wanna stay at home and chillex and avoid seeing couples cuddling and making out in front of my eyes. lol. and since i'm always seeing the same fireworks every year, this year, anime and asian dramas are all good. heee.

okok. i think i need to go do my happy dance now. wheee!!! ~(^_^)~

lazing...

2009-11-02T00:26:00.003+13:00

I have been eating..... ALOT. And exercise is definitely calling my name. But i'm simply just too lazy. Ahh, it just feels so good to sit at home, do nothing, n not think about any projects whatsoever. Of course, very soon, i'll have to get off my lazy butt n get down into finding a summer job, do some ICF stuff, and cleaning. Well, I did start cleaning up a bit. But there's like a whole load of uni stuff in the living room accumulated during the year which i need to sort out n clear up. Nways, i'm just ever so glad to be able to rest. For now. ^^

ASSIGNMENTS ARE OVER AND OUT! YATTAH!!!!!

2009-10-27T17:06:00.001+13:00

d title says it all. ^^

last nite was a good good nite.

2009-10-26T10:13:00.004+13:00

it's 10am. i wud hav been still asleep if i didn't hav some really weird random dream. mayb it's a post partying syndrom. haha. was up till 4am last nite at an "asian" dance party. n i mean 100% asian. yesh! asian guys! haha....it was fun. tho d music was not too good. after awhile we just kinda end up going elsewhere with way better music. but all in all, it was good. n even better, i finished my assignment! well, sorta. it's pretty much done. just need to make it look better. lolz. i'm not lookin 4ward 4 d crit 2mrw tho. as always crits are excrutiating. but on the bright side, after dat, i'm DONE! done for the year. YAY! just thinking bout it makes me so excited i can't wait 4 2mrw 2 b over. :D anyways, i'm going back to sleep. i just can't b bothered doin anything right now. haha.

new haircut

2009-10-20T19:46:00.004+13:00

chop chop chop! n my curlz are gone. yup....i traded my curls for a typical asian haircut capable of doin d "asian mullet". lolz. however, i'm not too skilled in doin it. hee.

like it? man, been spending d whole day playing wif my hair. n din do work which i was sps 2 do. need 2 get down 2 it 2mrw or else i can't chill n go to d asian dance party tis weekend. :( stupid buggy assignment. pfft.

striking similarities

2009-10-15T23:09:00.003+13:00

u noe rain's new boy band group MBALQ? yeah...i kept watching their new MV last nite cause for some reason, lee joon looks REAALLLLLYYYY familiar to me. and den it hit me today. he looks EXACTLY like one of my friend. or vice versa...whichever way u prefer. haha. but the similarity between them both is shocking. for those of you who noe this friend of mine, one look at this pic and u'll noe who i'm talking about -->

yes? yes? hahaha. i seriously just can't keep it to myself. it's too funny.

5min breaktime.

2009-10-14T18:08:00.002+13:00

right now, i'm in d midst of finishing an assignment due 2mrw. it's already almost done. just need to write a 200 word explanation of my concept. phew. i am seriously butt sore. i've been spending almost 15 hours everyday for the past 5 days doin assignments. =.= but i need my break. thus, i'm here to blab.

it's d last week of uni for me (approx 2 more days 2 go!) but i have an assignment due d week after next so i won't be officially free till den. i'm sooo tempted to go back to malaysia. i miss my crazy buddies heaps and d thought of just hangin in my fav malls is just killin me. i'm gonna b missing CF too. AND prob every other happening event in KL. *tears* but wat to do? i need moolah. so i need to work over d summer. i mean it ain't too bad since heaps of ppl seem 2 b staying here for the summer as well. but d fact still remains, i won't be doin crazy stuff tis summer. poo.....

nways, 5mins up! back to work. hee

btw, MBLAQ is smexy!

ROFLMAO!

2009-10-10T19:05:00.004+13:00

epicly hilarious pic from FO. it's d ep wif seungri n hyun joong in it. aihh....seriously can't get enough of dat programme. it's soooo funneh!

an insight on youtube

2009-10-06T10:10:00.008+13:00

youtube can be a very cruel place. once, i had a friend who posted a vid of her and her friends doin a skit on youtube. she prob posted dat vid wayy back ard 2 yrs ago. she only meant it for friends to watch. but somewhere along the way, 2 years later, some random youtuber watched her video and gave a real low comment dat really hurt my friend's confidence.

don't get me wrong. i LOVE youtube. because of youtube i can watch FO, i can watch funny v-logs, and heaps of random asian stuff. however, i just don't get some youtubers. it's like they take pride in themselves to painfully mock other people's videos. for example, remember dat leave britney spears alone vid? i friggin pity dat guy. yeah, he's kinda a doofus for posting a vid lyk dat. but some of the comments are soooo unnecessary.

i honestly think dat those youtubers who mock n make such low comments shud just shut up and keep their opinions to themselves. not to mention dey prob won't even have the guts to say the stuff they say right in front of peoples faces. d fact dat cause it is youtube and u can totally hide ur identity gives dem a huge amount of confidence boost to be able to mock people and get away with it. but honestly, do you have to throw such comments at people???

i'm not saying that only nice fluffy comments are allowed to be posted but if u had a problem with dat video, either give comments dat wud encourage dem to make better vids or just don't friggin watch it. no need to go "OMG. DAT WAS SO LAME. N YOU (the person in the vid) ARE SO UGLY." come on, wad good does dat do to a person?

these kind of things make me think about some american highschool drama where kids jeer and bully people who "aren't cool". just in youtube form. sad thing is, on youtube, sure...we have immature kids running ard mocking videos but there are also fully grown adults who really are full of shit. it's your fault kids these days are so rude.

but hey, what can we do? it's only natural that there's people like that everywhere we go n in everything that we do. but at least i want to people to know that mocking people on youtube is not cool n dat people shudn't take heed to those jerks.

still suffering

2009-10-02T00:34:00.002+13:00

o man....2 more weeks and a few days left of pure torture. one part of me can't wait till the 2 weeks are up and another part of me is dreading the 2 weeks 2 come. as usual, heaps of assignments due which only means more all-nighters and more fits. sigh. no, i'm still not over my broken camera n my days r still pretty depressing even tho is has become a tid bit better over d past few days. but still depressing.

but i'm slightly a bit more encouraged now. although uni is being such a bitch to me right now, there's heaps of people who have been really supporting me. sometimes i feel overwhelmed by the amount of support i have around me. n honestly, i don't think i noe dat many people who have as much support as i do. so i'm entirely grateful.

i reckon my source of all my troubles had been generating from a particular course with this particular course coordinator dats been really giving me a pain all through this sem. honestly, if it weren't for that course, i'd be downright fine. but nooo....not only was i at my usual stress level, but i had to deal with issues that take up heaps of emo energy. she's made my year d worst year so far. i hope to the deepest depths of my heart i dun ever get her as a course coordinator again.

n it's like 1am now. with a class at 8.30am 2mrw. n guess wat, it's 'her' class. T^T i really pray to God she'll just leave me in peace 2mrw.

NOOOO!!!!!!

2009-09-23T22:04:00.002+12:00

OH MY FRIGGIN BITTERGOURD! I BROKE MY CAMERA!!!!!

my beloved baby!!!!! *explodes into tears*

ok, its not as bad as it sounds. i just broke d cover of the SD card slot. fixable. but yes...it's bad enough to make me bawl n throw me into an extremely unhappy mood. how can d cover just break???? and it was even in d bag. wth?! i'm telling yah, tis yr has been nothing but bad situations one after another. absolutely nothin has been goin well.

ever wish u cud turn back time? well, tis is one of the moments wer i wish i cud just turn back time to wer my camera was still nice n pretty.

DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW PISSED I AM WITH DESTINY RIGHT NOW?

n den my mum was like saying cause i usually leave the camera on my table dat now it's broken. TOTALLY UNRELATED. it broke in the bag. how does dat have anything with leaving my camera on d table? huh?!

and honestly...please don't expect me 2 b all cheerful and chirpy right after i find out my beloved camera's been damaged. so stop friggin askin me y i'm in such a bad mood! it's pretty obvious. doh!

my life is pretty stinkin shit right now. and all i want is to throw a friggin fit. but if i do, all those 'perfect' people ard my so called perfect life is just gonna go, "justine, u shud stay positive." yeah sure. try putting urself in my shoes for the past 1 month and u'd b as pissy as me.

laaaahhhhhhhh.....

2009-09-16T21:58:00.005+12:00

my eyes have never been so out of focus. it's heavy. =_=

but anyway....

wanna noe something funny? these past few days whenever i start to write a blog entry, i start to feel really sleepy and fall asleep halfway through writing it. n wen i wake, i kinda loose my point. dumb ain't it?

well, life has not been very good 2 me. i mean, it was bliss during my 2 weeks of break but d day i went bak 2 uni, all hell broke loose. okay, maybe dats an exaggeration. but it's been pretty stressfull having one assignment due after another. plus, my tiredness just doesn't seem to go away. i've been spending late nights in uni tho. so i guess i can't expect to be all up and energetic when i hardly get enough rest.

but dats just half of it. yes, d other half is d same ol guy issues. actually, i haven't talked much about my relationships wif d opposite sex. maybe cause i had way too much of it back in highschool. lolz. those who read my old blog wud have known. heh. but anyway, ever since i broke up wif my ex abt 3 yrs ago, i haven't really been actively in search for another guy. i had more important things to focus on. but then, this particular sum1 shows up, sweeps me off my feet, n den dumps a cold bucket of water on my head. n trust me, for once, i did not ask for it. but o wel...wad d heck...my parents wudn't let me date a guy like him anyway (altho he's totally my type). it just kinda stinks. dats all.

ok...i'm feelin real sleepy now. but at least tis time i made it thru. lol. time to...zzzz....

falling out of pace

2009-09-09T17:33:00.002+12:00

grades: deteriorating

passion and drive: deteriorating

bright future: deteriorating

contrary to wad i've aim to achieve tis year, i am practically going in the opposite direction. i've been so out of it for the past month or so i'm starting to really worry about myself. everything seems to be in a blur these days and i can't seem to focus my mind on anything. i don't need 5 more weeks to figure that this year has been pretty disastrous, academically, for me. *shakes head* i don't even wanna think abt it. i rarely feel this way but these are one of d moments where i feel like a complete failure. i've been askin myself if i'm doin d right thing. if this is d path dat i'm really choosing to walk on. sometimes i don't think i even wanna become an interior designer. i prefer set design now but heck, wad does dat matter....i'm still in a gunkhole. i wish someone would just give me a tight slap n make me push myself cause i'm pretty darn sure i'm not doing things to the best of my ability. i'm just doin it. it's fustrating. n i felt like i wasted one year of my life being mediocre.

brain activity on high

2009-08-25T19:14:00.002+12:00

the fact that i haven't been doing much these past few days does not change d fact i've been thinking as much as ever. maybe more than usual. it all began on friday and over d weekend. lotsa stuff happened that i won't say out loud nor do i want people to ask me abt it. so don't come bugging me. not that i wasn't thinking alot before that, but now, these stuff is really invading my mind. so much so i can't even focus on coming up with a design idea for my project (which i'm seriously gonna be in deep trouble with if i don't come up with an idea soon). i noe wad ppl wud say... "just make urself not think". uh yeah, i can try. but i can't promise anything.

struggles.

2009-08-22T21:27:00.005+12:00

lately i've been feeling really pressured to meet people's expectations. alot of it comes from the fact that they expect me to be two times better and wiser than i was before. and the thought of not being able to meet their expectations scares me. all i want is to be able to continue to serve and contribute towards the icf vision. but from the look of where its goin, it feels like just being the way i am would not cut it. and sometimes i feel like i'm being asked to change myself just for the sake of other people and be what they expect me to be. and that....i don't like. cause if that's the case, i might end up doing it just cause it's a responsibility and not cause i chose to do it. and if that happens, it would not be good.

there are some things that i do that makes me...me. and i don't think God wants me to change who i am just cause i might not look like i'm cut out for the job. it bugs me sometimes that i'm not up to the standards of the status quo. however, it's really not abt being what people want me to be but how God plans to use me and what i'm good at to do the job well.

i honestly can't tell you how's that gonna work out but i can only learn to trust God and dat this is where God has put me and that he will continue to lead me and eventually show me the way. and if there are things abt me that God wants me to change, by all means, i should put in my best effort to change. but not for the sake of people's expectations.

-jp-

GD's Heartbreaker

2009-08-18T23:57:00.005+12:00

i got a shocker of my life today when i was checking out GD's first new solo release.

GD has gone platinum blonde!!!!!!...with outrageous outfits.

what happened to my gangsta boy? T^T. i saw a comment on some blog saying he looks like miyavi. n i'm like yeah...cudn't agree more. u noe how miyavi has d half visual kei half hip hop kinda style? GD is like the milder, korean version of that. haha. but i am seriously not used to looking at GD that way...in my mind, GD is still d cute pretty-faced leader of Big Bang. i'd never hav imagine GD blonde nor wud i ever tot he'll go blonde. but den again, i'm not surprized GD wud do something crazy like this.

neways, other than the major makeover, his new song Heartbreaker is pretty cool. d MV is cool too...other than the fact that i keep getting distracted by his blonde hair. lols.

dat's GD alrite...

so yeah. Dat's GD for you.

btw, saengil chukha hamnida jiyong oppa!

oh, and speaking of which...

BIG BANG'S 4TH ALBULM IS OUT TODAY! wheee~

it's like a full japanese album i think. right now, TOP is looking absolutely the hottest.

oh, and did you hear? Dae-dae got into a car accident. i do pray for his speedy recovery. FO is gonna be so quiet without him making up all those fake oppresions. Get well soon Daesung oppa!

-JP-

committing again.

2009-08-18T00:01:00.003+12:00

so i decided to stay one more year on icf committee. it was a long hard decision but after thinking it through and praying to God abt it, i believe this is what God wants me to do. trust me. intially, i kept saying 'no'. but somehow, God just keeps bringing me back and ask me to consider it again. at first, i was cool with sticking as secretary. but somehow ended up as vice prez. but doesn't really matter. as long as i'm still serving God.

-JP-

(=_=)

2009-08-12T17:33:00.003+12:00

i can see dark circles forming under my eyess...

its d sign of lack of good sleep and stress.

tis week had not been too good so far. u noe d test i was talkin abt on monday? yeah....i was 10mins late and literally screwed up d whole test. all thanks to the bus that came 10 mins late and a traffic jam dat made me arrive half an hour later than planned. i fear to see the grade for that one.

then, today, had to go to uni to do da stupid group project, and den der were all these technical issues i had to figure out. its so unfair, everyone gets to work in pairs except me. i had to friggin figure out the design AND the technical details for a DJ table. do you have any idea how much work that takes? i only just finish a simple 3D model of my thingy. still have to think of how it's gonna be put together in real life scale. ect ect ect. these are the days when i wish i cud just marry a hot rich guy.

got a 5% assignment due on friday too. not really sure how to do that one yet tho. prob gonna need to pull off an all nighter 2mrw. as if i'm not tired enough already. *sigh* i just pray for energy. i'm gonna need a serious dose of adrenaline to keep me goin.

i reckon u ppl must b really sick of hearing me go on n on 4ever abt my stressfull projects aye. but to be honest, i hate to admit that that's all my life revolves around (other than ICF) at the moment. sad...hopefully, one day i'll get to talk about a cute guy i met in uni (like that would ever happen). but for now, its just me and a pile of work to finish.

decisions decisions

2009-08-10T20:28:00.003+12:00

i've been thinking hard lately. whether to do one more year on icf committee and what would i do if i'm not...ect ect ect. altho i haven't made my final decision, i am more inclined to not continue on committee. not because i had enough, but because i do feel that there are other things God has in store for me. on the other hand, i still want to serve in whatever way i can. after all, ICF has become such an important part of my life, i don't think i can function without being part of it. so i do have mixed feelings abt it. guess i have to pray really hard abt it over the next few days.

got a test @ 8.30 2mrw morn. and i haven't studied yet. -.- studies hav been in a bit of a blurr these days. no idea what we're doing. i guess cause currently we're doing group projects so everything is going kinda slow. aih...my brain's been so sprawled out i hav no idea what i actually do on a day to day basis.

d kind of people i hate...

2009-08-03T15:30:00.003+12:00

no, i don't go around scolding strangers but this lady really had it coming. it's one thing dat she pushed right pass me and not apologize. it's another thing when she pushed pass me and then told me off when i muttered about how rude she was. heck yeah, it was meant for you to hear it you dimwit. but she had the nerve to turn around and say it was MY fault and dat I was the one who bumped into her (like it was even possible for me, who was walking in front, to bump into her, who was coming from behind). yes, i know ur a big fatass racists (literally) and you think dat you can just shove asian girls aside, blame it on them, and get away with it. bet you didn't think i'll have the guts to scold you back in perfect english did you? anyway, i told her -loud enough for passer-by's to hear it- that obviously she was the one who pushed me cause i was walking in front of her. but dat gutless woman pretended not to hear me and walked away as fast as her fat legs could carry her. what a whimp.

-jp-

busy times

2009-08-02T18:28:00.002+12:00

finally! i get to update me bloggie. been so busy doin this and dat i'm almost squeezed dry. had a proj due last tuesday. and my evil lecturer was nice enough to give us our marks straight away. another B-. yeah. it's my fate to be stucked with friggin B minuses for every design proj i ever do. it's ALWAYS a B-. *sigh*

and den, der was a cultural marketplace event yesterday. drained d energy right out of me. it was good and lots of fun but man, beinng part of coordinating such a huge event where u pretty much have the whole town coming to, ain't very easy. but who am i to complain? all i did was ushering, traffic controlling, and photographing and lil bits of wonton making. haha. d lighting was sucky tho. i had trouble taking good photos without a zoom lense and an extra flash. buggah!

i have another assignment due this coming thursday. so no rest for me till den. :(

anything but physical modelling

2009-07-26T18:52:00.002+12:00

i have to say, my number one source of stress definitely has to come from physical modelling. the thought of cutting, pasting, sawing, drilling makes me wanna cry. i find that i am usually not as worked up when the assignment doesn't require me to do physical modelling. but when there is physical modellin involved, i can't even sleep in peace. it gets even worst when you need the workshop. u noe, when u need to use those big scary machines. and the problem is, they don't open on weekends. so here i am, wanting to finish my friggin model so i can get it over and done with, but i can't. i can't even do 50% of it without the help of those machines. so i'm just sitting here unable to do anything. do you know how much that's driving me insane? plus, my assignment is due on tuesday. which only gives me monday to finish everything. and so God help me, i'll be able to finish everything in time without screwing up. yes, do pray for me. esp for a restful night since 2mrw i'll need all d energy i've got. also pray that i'll stay healthy. everyone ard me sick. >_<

me and my feline fren

2009-07-20T14:29:00.003+12:00

in case u were wonderin, no. dat's not my cat. it's one of my neighbours'. however, we've bcame such good frens over d mid yr break dat she never fails to come n greet me evrytime i come home ard noon. n if i happen 2 bump into her any other time, she'll quickly run to me and start purring. ain't she adorable?! sometimes, if d whether is good, we'll lie on the deck of my house together and just watch planes fly by in the clear blue sky.

today, the whether was exceptionally good for winter. me and neko-chan saw three planes fly by. it was so peaceful and serene hearing d birds chirping. i even drifted off to sleep 4 awhile just lying there. n u noe wads so awesome abt all this? is dat even tho u had a crummy day at uni, just a peaceful moment like this, puts a smile on your face.

GWAAAHHH!

2009-07-19T17:04:00.002+12:00

i am currently being absolutely unproductive. all i can do is pick up a pencil, stare at d empty sketchbook, and den...nothing. i've been like that for precisely 4 hours. and after every 5 mins or so i'll end up doing something else. and all i can worry about is how my tutor is gonna slaughter me...which isn't really helping me. *bangs head on table*

Kami-sama! tasukete!!!! gimme a revelation to my design! onegaishimasssss!

okay...i'm not suffering dat dramatically bad. 2 out of 3 of my courses are pretty cool. but one of em...o yeah...d one wif d insane lecturer, it's drivin me up d wall. partly cause the lecturer is so strict u kinda freak untill u can't think straight. i mean, how do u expect me to function properly with all these presurizing rules?? how are we sps to think outside d box when she's expecting us to record everything we do down??? aihhh.... she even calls u up personally if u fail to show up for class. wad are we? highschool kids? come on, even my highschool teachers cudn't even be bothered if i didn't show up. she even makes us stay through the whole tutorial time even tho we have nothin to do. how counterproductive is dat? altho i totally understand where she's comin from, i am not the biggest fan of her methods.

but anyways, by now, i've totally given up on trying to make sense of that project and moved on to another project which i manage to come up with some pretty neat ideas. (note: the time between writing the begining of this post till now is approximately 8 hours. i kinda got distracted by something else while halfway writing. in between that 8 hours, i switched to doing another project, had a good 2 hours worth of productive work, had dinner, and watched SYTYCD). so you see....it's definitely that course.

back to the busy life

2009-07-15T23:14:00.002+12:00

yep, bak in uni and already we are being slave-driven. okay, dat sounded a bit too harsh but we are seriously being asked to put a total amount of 48 hours per week on our work. n i mean a full 48 hours of pure hardcore work. one of our course lecturer is even making us record all d hours we put in on our work.... in AND out of our lecture and studio times. talk abt nuts. i mean...it ain't dat bad....7 hours of work per day...but when ur trying to squeeze brain juices outta your brain for 7 hours, it can be the longest, most tiring 7 hours u ever experience. but let's not think abt that shall we?

on the brighter side of things, Gazette's new album: DIM is released today! whoo! not lyk i can buy it but hey, if you want to get one for me as an ultra-early christmas present, by all means go ahead! you know i'll love you for it.

speaking of me loving people when dey do/get stuff for me, one of my fren went to aus for d hols n came bak wif krispy kremes for me! happie!!! ^^ she thinks i love krispy kremes more den her. but hey, anin, i love you more for getting dem 4 me! haha! *hugzz*

no, my love is not THAT conditional. i just have the tendency to favour people who spoil me. hahaha.

-JP-

2009. part 2.

2009-07-12T18:17:00.003+12:00

yes...uni will begin 2mrw. *fufufu* i can't say i'm that excited about it. who enjoys long hours of sloggin?? n believe it or not, my class starts at 8.30 in d mornin (X_X). i already feel tired just thinkin abt it. gahhh~

i got a new phone for the new term. hahaha. it's a nokia 3600 slide. yay! one more addition to my family of beloved babies. heeee.

ain't it cool? small and lite! yea yea...it's not an iphone or a nokia touch. but sorry, touch phones are not really on my favs list. keypads are still d best. i mean, how can u txt without looking if ur usin a touch phone? doh!

went to jap fest yesterday. really enjoyed it. (n no...not just cause it was swarmin wif hot jap guys) dey had really cool performances. i mean, who ever saw a clown with a mohawk and could do a handstand on three chairs and do pretty cool tricks at the same time?? n den der was tis dance crew frm sydney. had 3 jap guys and one korean guy. n u noe wad happens to me when i see hot asian guys street dancin. i go buck wild. yes, i've seen better ones before. but hey, tis is LIVE man. hohoho. kinda makes me wanna go hardout on dancing again. i wanna join a dance crew (*_*)

nway, din do much today. just enjoyin my last few worry free hours. hee....

tomorrow's gonna b a long day...

-JP-

TSCF Mid Yr Conference 09 - Living the Dream

2009-07-12T15:21:00.002+12:00

what else can i say other than IT WAS AWESOME! hahaha. o gosh, everytime i got to mid year conference i am challenged as well as rehydrated. lol. d speakers were so awesome n it really challenged my faith. we also got to experience living life the difficult way and how it would be like living in poverty. we got d chance to pray for people all around the world who are doing God's work too. was a very humbling and touching experience. besides that, we had loads of fun n playin games till d wee hours of d mornin. a few of us even stayed up d whole night till mornin on our last night. it was great. and as always, i've earned a bunch of new frens again! yay!

-JP-

Trimester 2 resolutions

2009-07-10T23:42:00.006+12:00

RESOLUTIONS FOR TRIMESTER 2 2009:

1) Do better in my courses!!!...wayyy better.

2) Start picking up dance again (after i'm less busy that is).

3) Go to church regularly (been slacking abit) and find a life group and stick wif it.

4) Spend more time with God.

5) I will NOT be anti-social.

YATTAH!

-jp-

wheee!! ~(^_^)~

2009-07-10T21:02:00.003+12:00

whooo...feels like i haven't updated in agessss....tho it's only been like...2 weeks??? neways, came back from camp last friday n been out n about for d past few days so yeah...

my sis n mum came bak frm msia on weds. almost feel like d family's together again. yes, its good cause i don't hav 2 cook n clean. hee. not good cause whenever i leave d house i hav 2 tell my mum where i'm goin, wad time i'll b bak...ect ect ect. yes, at the age of 19, my mum still takes me as her lil baby (even tho i've sumwhat declared independence).

wad else....o yeah, uni is starting in 2 days (T_T). say bye bye to the drama watchin marathon days for the next 4 months. must study harder tis sem. first trimester grades were NOT good. *sighs* i'm sooo gonna miss bummin my butt off.

update.

2009-06-28T13:12:00.003+12:00

eee....my fingers are sore. been spending d last 2 hours writing a song. haven't written one in yearssssssss. but i felt like it. i noe i've been doin pretty darn random stuff these past few days....like randomly drawing anime and writing songs. haha. u must think i'm dead bored. i guess i am....sorta. since i have to refrain from watchin dramas on9. (>.<)

goin away for a camp 2mrw for one week. yay! well, i'd be more excited if i was in d socializing mood. so i'm trying to get back that mood by 2mrw. lols. not dat i don't want to socialize. i'm just a bit in a world of my own at d moment. but i'm sure camp wud b great. it's always and always has been great.