into the working waters...

this week has been beyond intense for me. before it even hit me, there i was freaking out over an internship interview. n den i got d job. n now, i'm freaking out over actually working. like for real. architecture internship style. this ain't no simple part time job of taking care of kids or what not. this wud b d introduction of the real working world in which i eventually would have to step into once i graduate. scary? u have no idea...i'm totally NOT prepared for this.

however, God simply just opened d door n dragged my scaredy cat butt into that interview room. n whether i like it or not, i was gonna have to go thru this. yes, i know i don't sound too excited bout d job. but in all honesty, i am excited. i'm just a lil more scared den excited. i believe this is one phase in my life that God really thinks its abt time i conquer.

i dunno if u think this is funny or what...but i've been wondering how lunch hour works? do u just run off and eat? do u follow and eat with your co-workers? or do you just sit alone and eat? n if were i to go out and eat...how do i get there? would i have to ask someone to give me a ride??....sometimes i think my brain just thinks and worries abt d most useless stuff....

i guess it's scary that i won't know anyone and have to find my way ard stuff and all alone. (u noe hw i hate doing things on my own) n i'm mostly worried abt not being able to get along with all d othr ppl. but as evry1 has been tellin me, just trust God. and be confident. easier said than done but i guess i would eventually have to go thru it. might as well muster up all the courage i have and do it.

JP